I drown in this sea of consciousness
Finding hope doesn’t always float.
Seconds to minutes,
Minutes to hours,
Days to moments in time,
All living in me.
I tell myself so many lies
Thinking perhaps one day,
I’ll even convince myself.
A chill here and there
Flooding my mind, I breathe deep
Hold my heart and pray it goes away.
I cry out from this prison
This weary, frightened,
Weak stomach, fearful mind.
Lost and so afraid.
Sometimes I can hardly breathe
Hardly swallow, stand, or sleep,
I feel my body whither
Aching, crying, eaten away.
I try and sleep in this silence
But it’s far too loud,
I bite my tongue so hard it bleeds,
Caught, trapped in the undertow of my own lies.
Manipulated, brainwashed,
I cower.
Lives forever changed
Replaying over and over in my head
Just finally beginning to heal,
If I shatter this silence,
I shatter too.
If I heal myself
Everything else will fall,
Everyone else will fall,
Crashing so quickly, all that’s been mended.
Is dreaming all I have?
Remember me O Lord
As you have always done
And save me from myself.
I ask forgiveness,
For all that I have done,
For all who have done to me.
There is a sickness beneath my skin,
A sickness beneath my blood and bones,
For a secret gathers dirt and dust,
Forever playing out.
A secret gathers always.
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A contest entry
- Anything you like =] by Tilted-Misschief.
550 points, ended March 6, 2008, 41 entries
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925 points, ended March 21, 2008, 26 entries
Silver trophy winner
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Very well penned. Awesome job on the silver trophy. I really liked the whole piece! You are very talented! Thanks for the share!
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great write keep up the amanzeing work. i wish you the best of luck in my contest and thank you for adding something.
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Thank you so much! I'm glad you like the poem
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This was a great write. I really liked the descriptions and wording. You told us of the pain but didn't sound whiny. You also created a vivid picture but didn't make it confusing for me. Great write, I really enjoyed it. I just wish the ending was a bit stronger.
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Wow.
I like it,you have doen an awesome job and good luck =]
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