we fell apart

as i sit alone,
thinking of you.
of all the things,
i wish i knew.
i wish i said,
how i felt that day,
when i saw your face,
how you swept me away.
to hear your voice,
would make me sane,
but now its gone.
all thats left is pain.
i think all the time,
about your words.
how your beautiful voice,
was the one that i heard.
you told me you loved me,
and i felt the same.
but something happend,
you thought it was a game.
messed with my mind,
ignored me and such.
then told me you loved me,
you loved me so much.
and i would forgive you,
like a weak little girl.
because i needed you,
because you were my world.
but that ment nothing,
nothing at all.
so as time passed by,
we started to fall.
tell me what happend,
why we ended this way.
was it lack of the words,
we wanted to say?
what we had was so perfect,
we'd be together forever.
but it just coulden't last,
we coulden't make it all better.
i'm sitting here crying,
missing you so.
wanting to tell you the things,
the things you should know.
i'm still in love,
with you and your heart.
even if you were the one,
that tore us apart.
i'll love you always,
even if you don't.
i wish you felt the same,
i know that you won't.
i guess i'll just sit here,
crying and thinking,
smoking and screaming,
cutting and drinking.
this isn't goodbye,
i just wanted you to know.
that i'm in love with you always,
and i'll never let it show.