It's Okay

I close my eyes,
Trying to remember your smile,
The way you looked,
How you laughed,
And what you said.
It’s not too hard to pretend
That I am okay,
Because appearances can be deceiving,
But lying to the world is easy.
When you leave,
I feel so empty,
And even for a few hours,
It hurts too much to be away.
I have to close my mind against you,
So you don’t take over,
But the hard I try,
The less I want to fight,
And when you don’t call,
You feel farther away,
Than just a call,
A day, a conversation,
And when you don’t speak,
I feel farther away
Than just a smile,
Or just a look.
It’s harder than anything
I have ever done,
To say goodbye for a few hours,
Days, even a week
Hurts too much for me to bear.
But what makes everything better
Is your forgiving smile
That lets me know,
It’s okay.