The Goal

Once, I was told that there is no emotion felt
from one person to another that is more horrible than hate.
There is a fine line between love and hate.
The line retains the ability to be crossed over.
Hate can be restored to love.

Rage and Anger are true friends of hate.
They often walk together in perfect harmony,
side by side, linking arms, and twirling through a person’s soul.
I told myself that my goal where it concerns you
is to hate you into eternity…My goal has changed.

Hate is tearing me apart!
Anger and Rage are lending their helping hands.
Tears full of the emotion often convulse through my body
and I cry until my eyes are sore and swollen when I think
of the way you chose to try and destroy me…
Through my children!

I have learned that there is a thing far worse than hate.
Darker, deadlier, and far more dangerous.
It is stone cold and complete indifference, or the ability
to no longer give a damn.
The ability to no longer care what you think
or how you feel and even to walk away from your
dead, decaying, disgusting body without so much as a
tear in the corner of my eye. I do so long for that day.

Thus, my goal has been revised.
I no longer wish to descend into eternity killing myself by
hating you. My goal is to come to that sweet place of
complete indifference.
Someday, I will accomplish my goal.
But for now,
tears still stream,
Rage still thunders in my ears,
Anger still convulses through my body,
and I still hate you!