Realizing My Life

Shrouded by the darkness of my own heart,
I try to carry on.
Living day by day,
Searching for a life altering event.
Falling in love,
Never fared me well.
Always mending a broken heart,
Constantly struggling to live again.
Wanting to give up,
To avoid coming pain.
A light forms,
Demanding me to continue.
Urging me to fight,
Showing me a way.
I move one foot forward,
Then another.
Parting through the darkness,
Heading to the light.
I reach out,
Almost touching it.
Furthering my reach,
Stretching through the pain.
My hand illuminates,
I feel the warmth.
Basking in the glory,
Proud I hung on.
A little more,
Just an inch.
Grasping for the light,
Only to fall.
Disappointment fills my soul,
Crying out in shame.
Believing I had something to give,
Knowing now it was an illusion.
A long fall,
Back to my pit of despair.
Where I lay,
Wanting a reason to carry on.
Needing an absolution,
That will never come.
Realizing only one thing,
I am alone for eternity.