Spikes of Friendship and Love (DP)

All I know is that I'm
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For your *candy* eyes
And your [addictive] smile
B.r.o.k.e.n into tiny p i e c e s
As I fake a smile

My eyes are .:.burning.:.
From the sight of you with her
Tears are
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from my eyes and
G_l_i_d_i_n_g down my cheeks

You look at me
You smile and ~wave~
And even though it's killing me
I'll ~wave~ back

Why do I {torture} myself like this?

  Making myself
  >          Fall<
  >Between  <
  >      Spikes<
  >Of            <
  > Friendship<
  >And          <
  >      [Love]<

I kill myself s l o w l y
Like

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bleach

(But in a mental sense, of course)

Why?
Because I love you so
And you can only be \happy/
*With her*

(And I really want you to be happy)

But I can't live
*Without you*