I want to forgive you,
Because you're human
But for now you are to blame.
You took away my sanity.
I want to forgive you,
Because I'm human
But for now I'm too insane.
Author notes
There's a bit of bitter humour in there. This is like a sequel to 'Don't Look Back' because it's about the same situation, only my feelings on the matter had changed by the time I wrote this poem. This poem isn't as serious as the other; I'm trying to get over things but I still can't bring myself to forgive. I know that's bad, but what this person did to me was really bad. I'm seriously messed up now because of it ^^"
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Constructively Conservative
I don't know if this is true but I really hope it's not and if it is I hope it hasn't caused to much pain and hurt.
I wouldn't be able to give you any other information that any other’s have already gave you, all I can give is my friendship that what ever you do won't change it and help make you smile once again.
Xoxo Love You Lots Like Always... Serebear.
Remember: Hurt only lasts as long as you're willing for it too, their are other options to solve different problems.
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Catharsis works....
.. when you let it. I don't know how long ago this was written, but there's a determined sanity of truth here that gives me hope for you. You know what you want to do, you know what you ought to do, you need God's help to do it. Did you know that 1+God=a majority? Worth knowing, worth believing, worth acting on. I sincerely hope this helps. -
Time will tell
Good evening to the other side of the world. You have written a concise piece about human emotions gone awry and the turmoil that is left boarders on irrationality.
The urge to stay and make it happen is so too often the paradox that wrecks lives. Forgiving an act as devasting as "taking away an inocence" assuming without mutuality, is very hard if ever forgiven. Being a Christian is not a good basis for reaching resolution to a major conflict. Yes, Christianity is a Gospel of Love, yet it is not a formula for instant fix any more than it is about instant gratification. One earns respect by being a caring and respectful person. Then it takes time to confirm those attitudes and behaviors before we will allow them into our hearts and souls.
You are on the right path. At least you are able to frame the question very well. Time will tell whether forgiveness is available, a key condition will be contrition and regret for the harm instilled!
As for your write, it has eloquence of simple, fundamental truth. Short, to the point and heartfelt words.
Congratulations on this posting.
Thanks for sharing a very difficult subject.
bjarne

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Wow! Thankyou for such a thoughtful comment! <3
It's true, this poem is quite irrational (hence the contradictions) because when I wrote it, my mind was so full of hurt and incomprehension that this was all I could think. 'You did this to me, so how can I forgive you when I'm no longer in a stable frame of mind?'
I realise that Christianity doesn't make you a good person, or make others bad people, but from a young age I've always used my faith to motivate me into being a better person-- learning to be more forgiving, generous, etc.
When I was very young I used to consider killing myself, but the thought that 'God wouldn't like that' was basically what kept me alive, I believe. After all, when you irrationally assume that no one you know you would miss you, who else is left?
Again, thankyou for such a good comment ^^
Eph
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