The Prayer

Sitting in the silence, wondering what I go through
Finding ways to express my desire, my desire to be with you
Finding words to praise you, seeking ways to say it
Never knowing why, only for you is my heart’s flame lit

There’s so many things I’ve seen, many things have come my way.
I’ve been held hostage by the night, only to be realized by the day
I’ve always wanted blessings, yet only curses I received
I wanted to find happiness, but by myself, that I never achieved

Many times it hurt and I just wanted to let go
Many times I did it my way, never left you in control
Countless times I stumbled, so many times I fell
But God for sure I know, always my hand he held

But then finally you released me from the darkness and it’s hold on me
You showed me love and understanding, you set me free
And now it’s hard for me to remember; the pain and hurt I’ve been through
And the reason God is simple, the reason God is you

Now I’m living my life for you trying to do your will
I’ve been through trials and tribulations, but I’m here with you still
But I’m still not really satisfied, my soul still hungers for more
I want to be at home Daddy, not just standing in front of Your door

So I’m seeking more of you, I’m still not satisfied
Yes I’ve killed my old self, now I want to come back alive
I’m trying so hard, but it seems I’m going nowhere
God I’m tired of this level, please bring me up there

The pain of stumbling all the time is here once more again
My God I’m being pushed to my limits, I’m scared I will crack under the strain
Please Lord give me strength to keep seeking you’re name
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But then something the Lord showed, something I needed to see.
The same way now as when I was in darkness before, He’s still here for me.
So it may feel I’m only struggling, that any time I’d fall
But I know He wouldn’t put me through something I couldn’t handle at all

So the same it hurt then, it sure is hurting now
But “turn at my rebuking and my Spirit I will pour unto you” I’m believing in His vow.
So I’m standing strong, through this I will remain
Because the same way it was then, I will be lifted up higher again.
I’m keeping faith and seeking Him as long as I need
Because I know the Lord will give me, and give me indeed.