Family Intervention

Laying in bed long after everyone is asleep
Cuddling up to my cuddly toys
The radio on ever so softly and my breathing
The only noise

The radio kind of helps me
Helps to find a release
So hopefully at least one night these
Bad dreams will cease

My breathing is deep and broken
Tormented and trembling
Made that way from the pain I'm feeling
Deep, deep within

Tears start falling from my eyes
Thinking of the times its occurred
The times my body has been violated
No males touch is preferred

To think of boys and men
Getting close to me is scary
Since this has started of males
I have been so weary

Watching their every move
As they approach
Making sure upon my soul
They don't encroach

It has happened one too many times
In the past
And it is still continuing now days
How long will it last?

Daddy, OH Daddy, how can you be
So wicked and cruel
By touching my legs, chest and all the rest?
Yes, I am no fool!!

Daddy I know it’s wrong that you touch me
The way that you do
But I'm too scared to say anything
Because Uncle does it too

I do remember each and every time
Like it happened today
When you two would have your way with me
Deciding to play

Traumatize me with your malice acts
Acts of sexual pleasure
Aren't I your flesh and blood
Your golden treasure?

You touch my body, Take off my clothes
Strip my soul away
I was only five that first time
Yet I lost my virginity that day

Uncle Bill was the one who stripped me of it
I was left melancholy
Yet it was you that stripped my cousin of hers
(Yes, it’s not just me)

Daddy, I know of the sick games
Of yours and Uncle Bill's
I also know that when we got older
You two would drug us with your pills

Was that because our resistance
Wasn’t any fun?
Too much trouble when from you two
We would run?

As you know Daddy, I am fifteen
And Brooke is only ten
So as you can see there isn’t much chance
For us two to defend

To protect ourselves from you two males
When you choose to invade
Our beds and our bodies again
I wish my demons could be slayed

When we two do run it’s to no avail
For the doors have deadbolts
So we are stuck here to put up with
More and more assaults

More touching, more fondling
More of your dirty deeds
More kissing, more rape just to suppress
Your sexual needs

This is going to scar me for my entire life
Just so you know
You have never cared for me Daddy
Like the day you left me out in the snow

I was only eight that day when you threw
Me out the door
All because I was screaming and yelling
“Daddy please no more, NO MORE”

You made sure I was naked and in pain
That horrid day
And I can’t believe that you went to the trouble
To make sure the neighbours were away

I never wanted to let people know of these happenings
For they won’t stop anyway
When ever my daddy suspects I have mentioned something
He says “This is the only way”

“The only way for me to know that talking
About this is wrong”
Is to rape and molester me more and more
I need to keep strong

Too many torturous times and memories
From my disturbed family
Too many tears I cry, yet not cried for
People to see.