lost

Look at me now
can you see me
what is different
have i really gone this deep
am i truly this lost
am i in so far i cannot see light
i feel like everyday i lose a little more
pieces of my soul, so tiny yet so important
seem to despair daily
am i loosing myself
slowly my life falls apart
daily i battle my mind
only to continue loosing myself
inner turmoil takes control
  decides my fate
and destroys me more
all the goodness my life lost
all the happiness slowly fades
bit by bit i am falling apart
descending deeper into despair
into my most feared sanctuary
I am suiting up for a battle i know i cant win
i want so much, desiring so much more
but failure is just a try away
why do i keep trying
why do i put myself threw it
why don't i just give up
dismantle my own soul
throw all the pieces into the ground
just give up...
JUST GIVE UP...
my mind screams
hands clasped to my head
scenarios playing in my head
all i wanted falling apart
all i achieved caving in
as my mind falls apart
a single flame forms in the distance
what is it?
where did it come from?
suddenly i feel hope
like i have a chance
like i have a goal
like i belong somewhere
i awake to see my world hasn't been lost
i just wasn't seeing it clearly