My mind reels with a smack
my life has reached it's proverbial brick wall.
fucking great wall of china,
and here I am waiting on the other side.
Didn't you tell me once,
with your stories about fairies and happilyeverafter
that it wouldn't last forever?
You looked like a goddess with your hair piled on top of your head, your fishnets and kitty scars crossing like a spiderweb, and you put your head in my lap and laughed yourself to death.
You never told me that recovery feels like hands in white doctor gloves that strangle me from behind.
Even now I can feel my airways clenching with the strain and digging my fingernails into my palms... How could I forget, everytime I open my hands to the world I'm greeted by the crescent scars that are my failure,
my cowardice.
Because you never told me I'd see that light,
and run back to the water stains and the memorabilia that was scattered like confetti in my subconscious.
I drugged myself in half-mooned doses of cowardice
and the light receded, with the choking
and the feeling of failure fades too.
Author notes
3. However, despite the desire for good change, I've increasingly noticed how hard it is to change, because it's scary on the otherside (yes, even if that side is happiness)...because happiness can be wonderful and great, but it can end and then your world comes crashing down again, which is never a fun moment. So anything in this arena of emotion/thought would be welcomed...
1. I have always been a fan of dark poetry that stems from a not-so-good outlook on life. (cutting, depression, sucide, isolation, cynicism in life/love, etc....anything in this general area) so if thats your posion, then pick it.
I combined both. Hope this is okay.
A contest entry
- The Journey......... by child of grace.
600 points, ended February 20, 2008, 45 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Everything goes back to the start...
Comments
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powerfully written...bitterness, anger... all wrapped up into your words.
"Didn't you tell me once,
with your stories about fairies and happilyeverafter
that it wouldn't last forever?"
those were my favorite lines, though I have to say I enjoyed the piece as a whole. You have a way with words! thanks for entering this!
Cheers,
S -
You looked like a goddess with your hair piled on top of your head, your fishnets and kitty scars crossing like a spiderweb, and you put your head in my lap and laughed yourself to death.
You never told me that recovery feels like hands in white doctor gloves that strangle me from behind.
this stanza reminds me of one of my close friends.
beautiful.
<3
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A powerfully written piece of poetry. Very well written. I enjoyed the read very much. Good luck in the contest.
Kelli
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