How Could You Love Me so Much?

When I sit and think about
How much it is said that You love us
My mind is literally blown away
Cursed and scorned by those who
A second ago sang Your praises
You were beaten and lashed beyond reason
Far above what should have been
You were nailed to that cross
Screaming out a supernatural cry
All because you loved us so much
And I am sickened by the fact that sometimes
I choose to ignore You in my life
I choose to take my own path
Following false hopes, becoming entrapped
By nooses disguised as a rope to the top
By snares disguised as a clear path to happiness
Rather than to trust You will save me
I let my crimson river flow
Just wanting to take myself away
Because I don't think there is a way out
You always pull me out before it's too late
I look into Your face, and I realize my scars are gone
I see them in your hands, your feet, and your side
I wonder why I push you away
What did I do to deserve this love
How, God? How could You love me so much?