[ A smile like plastic ]

A smile like plastic
A face like winter
Tears like ice
Travel down my face
Down my skin they roll
Like rivers of gold
Theres no hand to wipe them away

I pull my hair
And scratch my arms
Trying to get the feeling back
I'm falling, descending
Upon a lonely track
You said never
Yet forever feels the same
I'll never get over
Just the way you talk
Opposites in posture
Yet attraction in the lost
I feel the way your eyes linger
You always push me away
Without words
Without touching
I know what you say

I feel broken
And beaten, Lying on my bed
As words drift through my head
Too much of a friend
Too far to be more
Too close to be less
I've never given up
And I never would have guessed
That you'd never say no
Yet, You'd never say yes

So now I am left
Just to ponder, to wonder

Will I ever be number one,
Or just the next best?