My soul...
Heh heh! Did I ever really have one?
Good question.
I guess, maybe once upon a time...
Back, way back, before I became...me.
I could start by saying my parents are
to blame, that this.....
this is all their fault.
I suppose I could tell you that
they're the reason my soul was darkened,
the reason the light in me diminished.
But why bother?
Who cares about that shit?
It's all been said before,
besides, you wouldn't be here
if that's all you wanted to hear.
Then....there was her.
She was everything beautiful.
Everything I was NOT. I thought,
she could heal what had been wounded,
but then I found I was not wounded.
Instead, I was dead.
Look at me;
rambling on like some pathetic idiot.
Yea, I'm crying. But why?
Not because of her.
But these damn memories,
each one tearing away at my mind.
I loved her...maybe too much.
When she said "NO"; it was like,
she ripped out what was left of my dead heart
and stomped on it.
It was then, that I became this monster.
These hands, took her life.
Choking all air from her cold heart.
Her face still lingers.
Her eyes, open wide as her mouth
still gasping to breathe.
FUCK!
If I couldn't have her,
nobody else would either.
But, I couldn't stop there.
The rush of that first kill....
the adrenaline...
better than any high;
from any drug.
Three days later, in the park,
there was a couple....
parading their happy little love,
in my face.
This time, it was easier and quicker.
Once she was alone, I wrapped
my shoelace around her throat.
Heh heh! That bitch never saw it coming!
Now, her boyfriend...
once he saw her; it was too easy to
bash his fucking skull in with a rock,
until his brains seeped out onto the sidewalk.
Just a mushy mess for the
dogs to clean up!
It hit me that night,
this was my calling.
I was chosen to play God.
FUCK....I am God.
Heh heh! A count of 3 is
a far cry from my total of 36.
Wouldn't you say?
So, maybe I should get the chair?
Maybe.
Here I sit, day after day,
reliving each and every one of those
36 deaths.
Their souls have become my pain.
Even as I sit here rotting
in this hell of a pit; and that fucking chair...
would be a blessing.
My pain..born from....
their suffering.
I was born...
and all I once was has died.
Now, I am re-born.
This is my birth,
of a killer.
Author notes
Background coutesy of LadyDementia
This is a continuation from my story ~Memoires of Murder~
Part 1
Empty Carcass
http://allpoetry.com/poem/3848603
Part 2
~Birth of a Killer~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/3924763
Part 3
~The Suffering~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/show/3944421
Part4
~A Voice Without Reasoning~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/4004399
Part 5
~My Masterpiece~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/4010999
Part 6
~Trick or Treat~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/4702575
Part 7
~My Madness~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/4765093
Part 8
~Judgement Day~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/5808785
Part 9
~Benediction~
http://allpoetry.com/poem/5830803
For the record, I have never killed nor intend to kill anyone this is pure FICTION
In a list
A contest entry
- DE II Contestants ONLY by Immortal Obscurity.
525 points, ended March 7, 2008, 6 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Enter All Your Dark Writes Here (Series - II) by xxRainbowDawnxx.
1500 points, ended March 27, 2008, 95 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - thorugh the eyes of madness by completely mad.
600 points, ended July 2, 2008, 32 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Be honest
Comments
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HEY!
haha, i have soooo totally read this before and it's just as amazing the second time around! ^_^
or 3rd? Can't really remember....you are a very talented writer -
holy shit...this is absolutely marvelous! there's nothing quite like getting inside the mind of a killer and you did an awesome descriptive job!
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thank you very much. I am glad you enjoyed this..it is just part 2 of a series that i was working on. I stopped at 5
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fuck yeah.....this poem was the shit...It made me smile while reading it ..I love the killer you have made for me....brilliant...thanks for entering
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Yes Yes Yes ~
I love this poem!
Ironically, it was in DE II, which I also co-hosted. 
I am so glad you have it placed in here.
Since I have already commented from the previous contest, all I have to say is thank you for entering it in "Enter All Your Dark Writes Here (Series II)" and best of luck.
M a r l u x ia
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I love the background it's so dark and creepy, with the blood prints. Now to the poem, it was wonderfully written. I like the tone that you use here, he's describing in a way the way he started, but showing he doesn't give a fuck anymore, that it was all lost and nothing is left in him, just an empty echo of a once young child who never grew to be a regular adult.
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This is quite interesting, to say the least. It def draws you in and keeps you wanting more. It's all twisted and dark and I looove it :]
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well, i am definately glad to see that you are enjoying these...
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Wow... Patrick, you have amazed me yet again! I loved the other parts of the series, and this was no different; Very twisted, dark, and eerily-personal... I hope it isn't though
Anyway, well done, and good luck!
Laura xxx
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Glad you like this..have to say that it is not personal..and thank you for the HM
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JtHM anyone?
I like the way you spoke directly to the reader [or how I saw it, yourself; yet we are placed in your mind as an audience, but an audience not exactly there... it's complex]. The tone of speech is perfect - casual yet refining and chilling. I think this does a good job at retelling the tale in a way that grips the reader and, for some of us more gullible folk, scare us into believing this is real (or a re-telling of someone else's POV). The only thing that I would suggest is replacing "Hehehe" with "Heh heh" to sound more deep and less comical-crazy. Thanks for entering in DE II and good luck.
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Thank you for the comment and more importantly the advice...I wasn't too sure of what to do about the hehes because to me everytime I read them I was always believing they sounded a little off. As for JtHM I think he is funny S@#$.
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Ohhhhh tch tch tch this is wonderful my friend been a while since I was 'OH NO its stopped at the end' knowing time is not on my side to read the next bit. Pure gripping thriller!!!
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WOW!!!!!!!!!
I FUCKIN LOVE THIS!
Very well written,
VERY well done......kudos
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thank you very much, I will hopefully be posting another part to this soon
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i think i just peed my pants a little. just sayin.
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lol...
I think that is a compliment..
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bravo! well done Ktulu ... I have always been flabbergasted by serial killers, but what really gets my mind working is the 'why' of it all ... way too many blame their 'upbringing' and it's a proven fact that their brains are no different to a 'normal' one, which only grabs me moreso! WHY do they actually do it?
enjoyed this one - thank you
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thanks for the comment...knew you would like this one...just wait until the next installment..lololol
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OK..... remind me not to piss you off, great job here and good luck in the contest.
I love you much
Elizabeth
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you never have to worry about this...it is all just writing..
like I said in my notes, I have no intentions on ever killing anyone nor have I ever killed anyone
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Wowzer!!
An awesome piece! 236?! Wow, could make for a lot of writes This was chilling to the bone, I love the 'matter of fact' way your telling it, as though he's talking about everyday stuff...mind, I suppose to him...maybe he is. You will have to let me know when the next piece is up...superb!
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Thank you for the comment...am glad to see you liked this one. Actually after I entered the piece into your challenge, I realized that I could continue this and have decided to do that.
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This was the most vivid disturbing, disgusting, horrid, never to be viewed by children poems I have ever read. I absolutly love it! You have tallent my friend. Keep writing.
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Why, thank you.
As you can see from my notes...this is but part 2 and part 3 will be coming soon.
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Okay my response as you wanted it.
Holy Hell
This is one great thriller in the making.
Loved it totally. Okay now, you have wet my
whistle. I want to see more in this from you.
Riftkin
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Holy Mother of Pearl Jam!!
When I began to read this...
I had a Green River Killer moment
it was like seeing his image and the way he murdered his victims~
Another Wonderful story You have told which brings forth what has infiltrated our society...
The Mind works in mysterious ways some say but when a leak occurs...
it can pollute the waters of the Innocent
There are those who should never be allowed
to walk the Earth...
unless we want to continue moving body bags
Keep that quill dancing~~
Magnificent!
Thank You for sharing Your Talent also Voice~
Many blessings to You in the contest Sweet Soul
Best wishes too
and much love~ Desire~*~
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Thank you very much...and as we speak
part three is in the works too.
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god this is great... the eerieness of getting inside his mind... fantastic writing
cheers
Jen
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MORE!!!!
this is just so gripping, you cant possibly stop now
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Thank you for the comment and clappies...
you should know by now how I like to leave my stories....
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