[dedicated to a sense of cacophony and disillusion]
i've given up
and i have a good explanation too
because in the past i thought maybe there was a chance
but i'm not forcing it
because
the truth is
i know why it never happens
i've looked at myself in the mirror and i see what you see
i'm not like them
i'm not like the ones you see
i'm just the one who doesn't quite measure up
i don't look
and i don't sound
but i do fail
i fail at being someone worth mentioning
someone worth spending time with
someone worth anything
and don't think i've forgotten about you
i remember every word so quit acting like i don't
i'm no fool
i blame you
because after all
it wouldn't have happened
if you hadn't of done it
i wish i didn't love you
because then
i wouldn't hate you so much
i think it was chester who said it best
or perhaps it was sung
that he never knew
but i do
and i always have
and i always will
because i
contrary to what my kind and benevolent friends tell me
am completely and totally
undesirable
even by the one who should love me best.
Author notes
abstract thoughts with concrete basis, but nothing major worth discussing. a lot of this is a bunch of things, even though its attributed to one sign name [singer]. there's more to this than singer in here.
Please tell me what you think
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very good
I like the way you rythm/break your lines, kind of chopped, maybe Im prejudiced because I do this at times as well. You are very good at getting these emotions out there,nice but sad write. If you can make me feel what you feel through your words then do I see what you see in your mirror, no, I see that we are all reflections of one self.

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And I am not one to ever follow instructions.. I hear your words and connect to them because on part I think I know what it is saying and it's the truth in it that makes me want to reach out even more.. I to feel as you do that I am not the standard of what should be..
Your not alone no matter how alone you really are.. And even if you don't want company someone is always there.. And I just hope that the someone could be me..
I'm gonna do double breakage here and applaud you because I feel that poems of true inner self should always be read no matter how much one does not wish it to be..

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thanks dear. i don't know what to say...i think you do know, and i'm sorry for that. thank you for being so wonderful, and for being there for me. i can't put into words how thankful i am for your friendship. ::hugs::
love you dear, more than i can say.
(i have class now, but i will respond to your message later) -
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Never feel sorry for me.. Because I am happy with my losses.. It's taken a long time for me to put them into a positive look.. Perhaps I can help you one day be able to do the same..
And as for our friendship.. It means the world to me and even if you don't want me around I will be there..
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