My fear

I dream that i am strong
that i never need you here
i dreamt that i was courageous
and i couldn’t find my greatest fear
no matter where i went,
i never seemed to cry
but pain never seemed to leave
no matter how high i’d fly
time went on
nothing seemed to make sense
the confusion of my heart
just made my world grow tense
i got scared but nothing close to fear
i tried to deny it every time
but i never saw how it was ever so clear
i was scared to have you
i thought i’d never want you to go
i was nervous to talk to you
i was sure you’d say no
but i was wrong
you held me tight
but good things never last long
no matter how weak,
no matter how strong
We can’t keep this fighting
this isn’t what it seems
no one means to fall apart
when one hands them their dreams
all this pain and suffering
has made me stop and see
you can’t stand in the middle of a war
and say let your fear be free.
scared if dying,
scared you’ll leave me alone
i wish that i never pushed you away
i need you now more then i’ve ever known
i never wanted you to leave
i  thought you’d always be here
but now i know i messed up bad
your gone...and that's my biggest fear