Two weeks later

Its been two weeks since you fucked me off
Two weeks of misery and tears
I’d love to lie to you, say I’m fine
But I can’t, I hadn’t felt like that in years

I was so stupid for letting myself fall for you
Why I did it, I do not know
When we started gerrin’ into each other
I never though feelings would grow

In a way it is unfortunate
That these feelings appeared
On one hand they’ve caused me hurt and grief
Made me show my emotions through my tears

However it was so good
When you held my hand or kissed me
I just glowed up inside
The glint in my eye, you could see.

Sat here writing this
I’ve got tears down my cheeks
Crying of how much I miss you more and more
As the days turn into weeks

Rereading my old messages
“luv yu”, you would say
At one point that would have made me smile
It would have brought sunshine to my day

But now, in a way, it makes me sad
Sad that I know you do not
And that no matter how much I read the messages
Your feelings have been forgot

But why am I sat here crying
Its not actually because I want you back
Its because I‘m remembering how happy you made me
It’s because I’m looking back and missing that

If someone could take away all of my pain
I’d say “no thanks” straight away
Because where would I be without feeling like this
I’d have no memories to cling on to, to stay.

If you took away all my pain
You would take away everything that makes me cry
But they only make me cry because I remember the good time
And I’m crying over the memory, not thinking “but why”

I’m 16
I’m not meant to get serious
It isn’t meant to last forever
It’s meant to teach me
To be a lesson for me to learn
It might upset me along the way
But where is love without hate?
Compassion without anger?
The world isn’t black and white
The world is gray
The good has bad sides
And the bad has good
It all merges together somewhere
You’ve just got to find where
Find that balance between them
To understand what you feel
Then you can love, cherish and adore someone
Because at least you know why
And you know your love can be real.