Is this love?

If I were only in another place and time
My hand would touch your cheek
And I would tell you
It will be okay
  You will be okay

You're sitting in your head right now
and images of me and what we were surround your eyes
You may feel beaten and you may feel loose
And the skin I tore from you, all the blood you just lost
You will heal and live outside again.

I want to tell you the rain can't stop coming but it will stop pouring.
The wind is so relentless and the flowers won't stop dying...
but when the spring comes they grow back and take the shape of beauty.
I want to scream to you that you deserve your heart's desire
with a poem dedicated to only you.

And you say you're screaming now
      It's hurting you as much as it's hurting me.
And I'm watching you die, I'm watching you shrivel,
I'm watching you cry


And it's at my hand.


When I say I love you
When I say I miss you
When I say my soul is dying and it's all because of you
When I say I need to
Need to walk away
I mean it

And sadness envelopes those eyes

and I'm left today

No longer the victim but the murderer.






May she heal the wounds I've caused and know
no one will ever love you like I did.