A fear slowly creeps upon me,
it's urgency growing with each passing thought.
I've always possessed a certain strength,
a quiet manner that must have been taught.
But this feeling, cold and desperate,
is one that I can't shake.
There's a trembling deep within,
that I try to ignore for sanity's sake.
I know that I must face it,
I must give myself the time.
The time to show my dad,
this broken heart of mine.
He is my reason for being,
everything I am is him.
I have his disposition, his memory,
and even his grin.
This fear I've come to live with,
a stale taste in the back of my throat,
is that soon I will be drowning,
I think I'll sink without him in the boat.
As this creature devours him,
as I see him pulled away.
I pray the inevitable will wait,
and come another day.
Author notes
work in progress...my dad is fighting cancer
when i wrote this my dad had just had surgery to remove throat cancer. his face and neck were extremely swollen. he had a trach and a feeding tube. it's honestly the scariest thing i've ever been through. the hardest thing i've ever witnessed him overcome. he's doing well now. there is still a little cancer in the back of his throat and he's still doing chemo and radiation, but he's taking it all in stride. he's so strong.
i guess that's the hardest part. my dad has always been the strong, quiet type and to see him in a moment of weakness...was almost unbearable.
UPDATE 7-9-08 :
My dad is doing really well. He's currently cancer free. He's just waiting for the surgeon to decide it's time to remove the trach and feeding tube. He's hasn't been using either for quite sometime. Once he heals up from the surgery (removal of tubes) he's going to go back to work, part-time at first. He's doing great though. Thanks for all your prayers.
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Comments
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This is very beautifully written. Cancer is not cool. I have watched 2 family members die from it. I truly know how you feel. Enjoyed the read! Thank you for entering my contest.
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Well, the poem didn't have to be about you dying, it just had to be about dying.
This is a really sad piece, very emotional, and very well written; I feel it captured the emotions of what you're going through really well.
I'm sorry that you and your father and your family are going through this I hope things get better for all of you.
And good luck!
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This was so sad...That must be really really hard for you. I'm sorry.
Now I feel really bad because unfortunately, even though I loved this and it was so heartfelt, I'm going to have do disqualify you from my contest because it was a contest for poems dedicated to those who have already passed.
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this is a very sad story, and im sorry your dad is fighting cancer i hope for the best for you i love these lines "As this creature devours him,
as I see him pulled away.
I pray the inevitable will wait,
and come another day." -
omigoshi.
this was just amazing.
very emotional.
thanks for entering.
good luck.
unbreakable♥
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wow this is really powerful my best wishes to your dad. Good write bravo!
Goodluck!!
~dawn&hearts -
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Sis,dad is doing okay,regardless how exagerated mom makes it sound.Stay strong.
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