I sit forward in motion.
I walk to standing still.
Can’t let go of the future.
The “now” is killing my will.
Had is up to here.
Reaching the point of bitter return.
The fire we created now back drafts.
My heart is beginning to burn.
I love you like no other.
I need you like never before.
It’s not just about waiting.
Not about just standing at the door.
I am a snowball
On a freefall
Towards my downfall.
Down this mountain out of a molehill.
You created.
I perpetuated.
The key you dangle over my head.
Come one.
Come all.
Get your pound of flesh here.
It all has to go.
Understanding blasts my eardrums,
Yet something tears at my heart.
Each carefully placed brick for your safety
Builds the wall that keeps us apart.
Not black and white
I fight the fight.
For you
For them
A life together.
More grey and red.
The blood is shed.
I only fear
One type of weather.
You know the snow does not stop me.
Knee deep I still walk to you.
You know the wind of fear blinds me.
My soul still guides me to you.
Lightning it is.
Bolts hot as the sun.
Struck before.
Sent from the tip of your trident.
That’s my kryptonite.
My right to want different.
You know that.
Acknowledged that.
Mistakes you say.
Say you will make more.
Is that the green light?
Is that the nighty night
Lullaby I am to sleep by?
Broken into two pieces.
Both falling
And calling
For you in the dark.
One falling faster.
By the second.
By the minute.
Deeper in love.
No bottom in sight.
Because it isn’t there.
I swear
I swore my love to you.
Then, now, and forever.
The other plummets downward,
Spiraling to a shallow grave.
My antichrist wishes,
Watches my demise.
Laughing behind your inability
To do nothing.
My baby.
My queen.
You are in my heart.
Yet from there you have no arms
To catch me.
I try to catch you everyday.
But you won’t let me.
Arm’s length
Your fight.
Nighty night the lightning sings to me.
I scream past the thunder.
“Catch me”
“I’m scared”
I’m angry as I stay muzzled.
My perception becoming impaired.
One
I see the Earth coming.
Was once a speck under my feet.
Two
I give into the freefall.
Faith that your arms I will meet.
THR…………………………………………..
Sing the flash of the lightning.
Illuminate thunder’s sweet kiss.
Sweet lullaby dream me to sleep.
May I wake to our life after this.
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