More Than This

it's 3 am
and I'm lonely
waiting for you
to wake
whilst you sail away
in slumber

I miss you
even though you are
always here to guide me
I can see you
feel you
but I'm not feeling this

It's not because
I don't love you
Because I do
It's not as is if
I don't want you
now you know thats not true

It's just I don't
feel the rain like I used to
everything's a darker shade
of grey
there is no-one left to blame
all that's left is pain

I want to achieve so much
wasted effort is all I gain
I'm sick of being lost
and tired of being sick
I want a magic wand
to make your presence
more than a linger

can I not just wake up
and believe
that life is all mapped out
we'll find our way
and that you'd love me
more than life itself

I want you, us,
the house, the car,
I want children, wedding cake,
careers that take us far
I want to see the world
through the same eyes
images entwined with love ties

I want to scream and yell
to you on the birth of our new born
I want to cry on the day
of our union
I want to smile as we watch
our lives come together
in the way we always hoped it would

If only I could feel
It I could believe
that its actually real
instead of questioning it all
you, me, and everything
help me survive myself
and I'll believe in the rest..
with morbid passion