Why me?

Why me?

Why did you chose me to inflict this on?
You couldn't have chosen some cynical, pessimistic bastard who would move on quickly could you?

No... of course you couldn't.
You had to chose me... optimistic, happy... bright...
You had to dim my inner light...
Fuck up my happy ending... Screw my emotions...

Because of you, I have cried more than ever before...
Six times in two days.... and that's just on the outside.
My heart cries out for release from you, and I sing a sad song.

Yesterday, I had to sing an angry French song...
And I realized I shouldn't love you...
I should HATE you....
And all of my hope, love, anguish, and despair became hate

Pure burning hate that coursed through my body,
And I LIKED it... it was nice to feel something else...
It was nice to hate someone for the first time...

So much hate and anger ran through my body,
My body shook with such great spasms that people could all see.
After I was done, I was told that I shouldn't have done so well...
I made it hard to be critiqued...

I was told that was the best I have ever sang...
And it's all because of you... Because I had to hate you..
And then take that hate and sing it out...

I wish to tell you that I hate you...
I wish to tell you that you deserve to go to hell...
I wish to break your door down and trash your apartment...
I wish to take a bat to your car and fuck it up..

But I won't... I won't lash out at you,
Because unlike you, I have class...
Unlike you, I have a conscience...

I hate you, Danny...
I hate you with every fiber in my being.
I am sure God would understand...
You can go fuck yourself... because you made me hate.