Everytime I close my eyes,
I'm taken back to new years eve.
All I wanted was to celebrate,
To forget about the last few months,
Get away and have a good time.
Lying in the dark I'm taken back,
To that awful night and what you did.
Your eyes starring in mine,
As you took advantange of me.
Not giving a damn that you were hurting me,
There I layed drugged and helpless.
Attempting to fight you off of me,
Yet no matter how hard I tried, I failed.
The minute you were done,
I got up and dressed.
Don't know how but walked back to the bar,
The it all hit me what you had done to me.
My dress was ripped and my hair a mess,
I couldnt stop crying.
Could not beleive it happened again,
When is it going to end?
Lying in the hospital bed,
My friend a nurse in the room.
Tears streaming down my face,
As she took the rape kit for evidence.
It was humiliating and degrading,
A month later it still feels like yesterday.
Still petrified and unsure how to deal,
Wether to press charges or not.
All I want is to forget this horrible night,
Banish you from my head.
You used me and degraded me without a care,
I'm still here and I will continue to survive.
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A poem about new years eve....
Please tell me what you think
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Damn
I am so terribly sorry you had to endure that on New Years, I can relate as I went through this for quite a few New Years until someone finally helped me escape.
You are strong & brave for posting this
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Wow
You express emotion very well in this piece.It's amazing you had the guts to post something so personal.Great job.
and hope you start to feel a bit better.
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Nice Message
You opened up yourself to us again witht his poem and shared your pain with us but your message in the end was strong and true., your saying that even though you were abused and hurt you don't allow that to consume you for who you are and well you move foreard as if you took a blow to the head and kept going. any ways this is another powerful poem and it is sad that you bene through so much but least now you are making a new life for yourself and doing quite a nice job. any ways stay storng and keep up the good work. you will always have a friend in me
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wow............. its to deep to even describe!
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