Yesterday

Soft morning light seeps in around the edges,
I lie on my side with my arm outstretched
If I look closely, I can see
See the shallow scars,
Where the razorblade slashed my skin so long ago
I run my fingers lightly over my wrist and close my eyes,
Feeling
Where did my head go yesterday?
It’s lost in a blur
Tried running from my demons,
But they found me cowering and crying in the corner
I’ve been torn apart,
How will I ever be whole again?
I think they’ve eaten my heart and scrambled my brains
I curl up as the morning lights get brighter,
The yesterday I thought I knew has disappeared
I think I fell down,
But there was no one there to help me up
I think you looked at me with disgust in your eyes,
But that was yesterday
When did my scars start bleeding again?
Where they ever really mended with scar tissue?
I think you’ve eaten my heart,
There’s a big hole in my chest,
And soft morning light seeps in around the edges