Love is a problem and a cure

I can't even explain to you
all i'd do is cry.
if you wanted an answer
i wouldn't be able to explain why.

it seems time is moving
and i feel like i'm behind
i keep trying to take a step
but there's something i have to find.

and no it's not love
i think it's sanity
calm and storm can't co exist
but they both describe me.

i can only pray you understand
the tears fall on their own
and it's not because i'm upset
it's not because i'm alone.

it's because they fall.
i'm tired of wiping them away
tears could possibly be words
or they could be cliche

i can't even tell you what i mean
i don't know what i want to say
i wasn't crying a while ago
and i don't need you to stay.

i feel like you're moving
maybe i'm lost in the past
maybe i breathe on old words
and things that will never last.

but i can try to make you understand.

sometimes these tears just fall on their own
as much as i'd love for them to cease their fall
they just keep going on and on
and i don't know who to call.

i'm so tired of crying because
i know it doesn't help at all.
but maybe i am drowning
and i don't know who to call.

after so many plans are made
and so many plans are broken
after so many words are said
and so many words are left unspoken

i still care.

and no matter how many times i say
i don't give a damn
it'll always be that way.