Why was my son the one who had to die?
This just happened I always cry.
Can you imagine finding your son dead,
all alone this has been my biggest dread.
So handsome my son also very young,
as a mother this has really stung.
He overdosed at the age of twenty-four,
I found him home alone on the bathroom floor.
He didn't want to die this I know,
sober, engaged so happy, ready to go.
Starting his life over fresh and anew,
so excited seeing how he grew.
Rehabilitation, counseling, walking strong,
I thought he'd make it, I was wrong.
Oh how I miss him so very much,
he was so happy, we loved him a whole bunch.
Our whole little family is grieving,
for our Matthew was so achieving.
We at that time didn't think he'd slip,
now we watch him in a memorial movie clip.
Watching your baby become a child and grow,
becoming a man is so beautiful you know.
So many of our dreams did come true,
yet the rest of our dreams, we had no clue.
Marriage, grand babies a dream we always had
this is now not happening we are very sad.
Drug addiction from injuries of motocross,
pain medication became his new boss.
I hate drugs, just imagine I really do,
for so many people die, so many are blue.
Just today I got the coroners report,
weeping so deep without any support.
No one is home with me today,
all I can do is cry and pray.
So I ask God to help me to get through.
Why God did you take him, I feel so blue?
Written by: Kelle Marie Stavron
February 1, 2008
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I My son passed away just four months ago. Just today I did get the coroners report. My son overdosed from prescribed pain medication, oxicodone. I'm home alone and so very sad. I write poetry or journal to keep track of the process of my life. Praying I get through this and to be okay. It hasn't been very long at all, I've never been away from him for so long. To not even here his voice on the phone is so very hard, I don't want to forget him never at all. Please pray for me if its on your heart. Sometimes I struggle really hard, other days I'm ok as time goes by. Like I said I just got the coroners report so I'm very grieved. Thank you all for all of your support, love and encouragement!!
Kelle Marie
A contest entry
- Tons of Titles!!! by xxRainbowDawnxx.
450 points, ended February 7, 2008, 55 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
When you loose someone you love so very young wouldn't you ask WHY?
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This is so very sad, and such a sad situation. I am sorry you had to endure the pain of losing a child. I can't imagine the pain you are going through. This was an amazing write. Hits so close to home. Thank you for entering and good luck!
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tears came to my eyes and tis is a really sad poem, the pian holds alot of emtion.
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Yes. Im sorry for ur loss. This is a touching poem and I feel ur pain every bit.
Much love-Dana(: -
This is tragic and I am terribly sorry...Its also a good write...
I am sorry to have to do this but you should have read the rules. Re-read them in the SECOND LINE and you may re-enter if you abide. -
again im terribly sorry
thankyou for sharing this with me in my contest
great flow to them all
i know people say that this god guy makes things happen for a reason
but to me i just think he is cruel and has no heart
i belive in no god
i worship noby
im my own
but these stories were great
again im sorry for your loss
xXalyXx
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it's heart breaking and painful to loose ones own flesh and blood...
but u know when our loved ones watch us up there from the sky they are terribly hurt to see us in pain coz of their departure from this world...
u must miss ur son but dont grieve,coz its hurting for his noble soul...
he is safe up ther in god's arms...so u dont need to worry...at anytime...
god bless him...
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Wow
This is such a heart breaking and powerful write. It really is sad and I am sorry for your loss. Of course I will be praying for you and your family.
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Some thoughts
Please forgive this intrusion, it is not meant to give you more pain. If your son took drugs, no matter what kind, he must have been in pain and I mean inside, emotional. My experience tells me that it is likely that he suffered in some way that was so hard he couldn't tell you. As someone who took drugs, got close to killing himself, my thoughts for you are that your son may have been a victim of sexual abuse. I know from experience and from those I have counselled that most if not all people who use drugs have been sexually abused at some time in their lives and because of it, they felt lost and turned to drugs. May be your son wasn't one of them but my senses tell me he may have. It may help you to try and find out if this is true or not because if it is true, you will understand what your son was doing and why things turned out the way they did. If I am wrong I will apologise but I don't think I am.
God bless you and thank you for telling your story I do feel your pain..
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If you read my poem, Fortune cookie, that son, had a roomate overdose. He called me 5AM, hysterical. "Dad! Pete is dead! Please come!" I don't think about it... He was my employee, and I read poetry at the graveside... But his face was on the floor, with his body across the bed.. blood had ringed his eyes...
And for you- it was your son.
I feel for you...
Here is another one
http://allpoetry.com/poem/
You know, God does not waste pain. He redeems it. He uses it... It is qualifying you to walk with those who have extreme loss, and offer genuine comfort. You speak as one who knows Jesus; His death is powerful enough to cover a mistake like Mat made... -
I know you told me earlier that your son died when I found this poem I had to read it I know there are no words to say that can ease your pain I can't image how you feel every day this is something no mother wants to go through something a mother prays every day wont happen I am sorry for your lost may your find a pray can smooth away some of the pain until you can see him again -your friend
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First of course, I am sorry to hear of your son. I wish you well...
The emotion is apparant very nicely in this poem but I feel that with some punctuation adjustments and rephrasing of some sentences this could be even better in terms of structure. Thank you for entering. -
Just a quick comment to say thanks for entering this into my contest, sorry you didnt win but obviously there can only be three trophies given, which is a shame cause in this contest there deserved to be alot more winners! xxx
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TEARS ! ! ! and more Tears and caring waves are being sent to you Kelle All love Lib x x
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this is very sad and I want you to know that I'm very sorry for your loss.... while I would now take this time to go over all the little imperfections in the peice... I won't. The emotions that poured through it brought a new light to it....
Very sorry'
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I'm so very sorry this happened to your son. I know it doesn't help, but what else can I say. This is a touching piece and I'm sure he's looking down on you from heaven and whispering in the wind, 'Don't cry Mum, I'm here for you... You may not have the marriage or grandkids, but everyone else is good. Please stop crying, I'm here watching over you forever. I'll stay by your side and leave your heart never.'
If you need to talk, I'm here. God bless and I hope things become easier with time. They never go, but the days become more bearable. -
awwwwww I am sooooooo sorry my friend...beautiful poem though....I really enjoyed reading this but it was very heart wrenching! great job! keep writing my friend
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Powerful
I'm very sorry for you lost. The death of child is so tragic. I hope writing this helped in some way.
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I deeply felt the pain in your words. I must tell you writing is so healing for you. To be able to get it out on paper helps take some of the power away from the situation.
But I also have to tell you I am a recovering alcoholic and addict also so these words help not only you to heal but me as well. They are a wakeup call that this can happen to any of us with the disease of addiction. It is cunning, baffling and powerful and your words remind me to always be on guard of my disease. I am truly sorry for your loss. Thank you for this poem.
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Just some thoughts
Often we weep for a loss
yet some will live more in there few years
then ten men in a full lifetime, from my verse to you
I see it all in this picture, the excitement for life
"As children it seems
everything... is still possible
so we greet each day, as a new adventure
something to be explored for fun, lived with greatness"
Worry not, if he lived enough
So much was said and done
It is often US that must move on, and live
Rick
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sis
i cant hardley type for the tears my eyes cry for you,i am sitting here feeling a bond a spirtual one God gave you and i and kellie my heart loves you ..and my prayers are with you always but i ask cause you know me and my life Jeremy my son has been clean for two weeks finally ...please pray!!!!!!!!!!
I love you my sissy,
~Lisa~
May angels watch and comfort you
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I Cried
I have read this several times
and each reading leaves me further in pain
I am very aware of your loss, Lisa told me
I have greeved too often in fifty plus years
I dread that you lost a son, may God heal you over time... Amen
Rick
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Kelle Maria I pray for you everyday and I am so sorry you had to be alone when you got this report.The sadness that you are feling shoots through my soul and I cry for your son and your famalies healing.Hold on to the cherished memories of the days you shared before the accident.These treasures will help you pull through this awful time...I love you and if ever you need a friend.I am here.
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You will Never forget him Kelle...
the love in your heart will always keep his memory alive. I am so srry you had to be alone when you received the coroner's report. it had to be hard to read those words again. I am still keeping you in thought and prayer. Hang in there it has only been a short time. But at every holiday maybe you and your family could do another small memorial and talk about something funny or happy and just laugh and cry together I belive it will help you and draw you yet closer and stronger as a family unit...I send you hugs and wishes for warmth and comfort my friend!!!~~Toni~~
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Darling we are all here for you on this site and we are praying for God to watch over you and give you the strength you need to overcome your grief. Loosing someone is never easy and I can't even imagine what it would do to me to lose a child. Your poetry and journals will help you greatly. I have lost people so dear to me, some of them over 30yrs ago and since I started writing it has helped so much. It feels great to know that I will always give them life in my poems. I'm usually on everyday if you need to talk or you can even send me an e-mail. When you feel like you are going to fall just remember we are all here to catch you and help you find your feet again. Love you girl, Cathy
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Kelle, all who knows your grief, hurts with you. Just close your eyes and imagine us there..holding you, crying with you, praying with you and for you.
SilverButterfly
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Kelle,
This had tears welling up in my eyes. I can feel your pain so deeply within... I really wish I knew what to say to help you hon, but that is something I am at a loss for..... words to comfort... I continue to pray everyday that you will find some comfort somehow. You have touched many hearts with your story, I know this, I just wish, that you could have a happy ending, I know that is something that you will never feel, sis. And for that I hurt too.
Stay strong sis, I am here should you want to talk.... just im me
Love ya bunches
Nyetta
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I am deeply, deeply sorry for your loss! You penned a very moving and emotional time in your life and it really strikes a chord here with your AP family! Know that you are not really alone.....I will hold you and your family in my prayers! HUGS Marie
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I Hear you honey
We can never understand why our loved ones are taken away we just have to know they are out of pain now .
God Bless you and help you through these days . I am here everyday just contact me ok
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Oh honey, *hugggggggs you tiiiiiiht*, I love you so very very much 'n it tears a whole in my heart to see you hurt so. I wish I could take away your pain or ease it just a little. I'm so very sorry for your loss, please try to keep to your head up and know that if you ever EVER need to talk to anyone, I am here.
Oh yea..beautiful poem hun....f
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Ahh those dang pills should be illegal. Or alot for that matter. I am sorry that you are alone today. This has to be really hard for you to have received the report just one more thing to trigger more pain. I am proud of you for writing this hope it helps a little. But I know your pain is deep and nothing really can. I wish I could hold you tight and see you through this. much love sweety Keep praying and God Bless
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My condolonces...I can't imagine going through this kind of pain since I don't even have kids yet. I wish I could say something and make it all better. I know writing poetry helps keep me sane sometimes. Please continue writing!
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Your heartfelt poem says it all. I read it with tears in my eyes, for I know how sad and heavy your heart must be. I know too many who have suffered because of drug addiction and to lose a son to it...so painful. I will be praying for you!
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Very heartwarming.
Dear Kelle I am so sorry that you had to be alone when the report came, however you are never alone as you know. God is always with you as are the people who pray for you. As you have stated you have to just reach out and God is always there. As to why maybe God took him home so that something worse would not befall him, and you know that you will see him again in the next world. It is extreamly hard to face life without our loved ones but if we knew that they would suffer much worse if they had lived then we would be glad that God had taken them to be with Him, and we must always remember that now he never has to face the perils that are a constant threat in this world today. He may have been physically home alone but as with you he really wasn't for God was surely with him. God and His Angels held him in thier arms all through that time, and now he truely is at peace and I am sure that he wants you to know this. Bless you and my prayers are with you. Beautiful poem you have written.
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Thank you for being so strong to write about the passing of your son. It takes a very strong person to tell people how you truly feel and it really brought back memories from my life. I had a miscarriage a year ago, and it was the hardest thing that I ever endured. This poem is beautiful, and I know that you honored your son through these words. Again, very beautiful and I hope that you remain strong.
Love
Sorry Her Lot
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Oh God! I am crying for you dear one. I can't begin to imagine your pain, I am a mother also, as you will always be, so I know how we love. I am glad you wrote this, so I can reach out...I have already prayed for you and will continue to. If I could hug you now, i would, but since I can't, I asked for an angel to hug their wings of peace and comfort around you.
blessings,
Michelle
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You are in my prayers. I have several friends who have lost their children to this horrible situation, and I can honestly say, it has almost happened to me myself. I broke my back, and of course have been on the medication trail for too long. I am sooooooooo sorry about your situation. I also journal, and have done everything in the book to stay sane. God has your MATTHEW in his arms, and they watch over you daily. You are an awesome writer. I'M SO GLAD I CLICKED ON YOUR PIECE. May GOD bless you and yours. If you need to talk, message me. LOVE, POETDONTKNOWIT
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I am so sorry.
I can only imagine how hard this is for you. I have two small boys at home so I can relate to how painful this must be for you being a mother myself. I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you and your family. This piece was beautifully written. Great Job! And keep your head up.
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Yes, I would.
That was a nice poem. I'm sorry that your son passed away. I've never lost anyone, so I don't know how it feels, but I imagine it's horrible. -
Kelle... I reach out my hand to you, pray for you... I am here if you need to talk. I wish someone was there with you.
My heart is bleeding for you and your sadness right now!!
You won't ever forget him! This tragic loss is such a waste of a young beautiful life... I can only imagine your pain... but wish I could bear some of it for you!
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