You see... strength
but
I feel worn.
You see... faith
but
I feel fear.
You see... smiles
but
I feel fake
You see... love
but
I don't.
A cryin shame and what a waste,
waste of a girl who coulda been.
My crying days are over
I'm all cried out you see
Nothing left to weep about
It's all been handed out.
I lost my love...
Barely made it back alive.
Now what you see before you is all that I have left
What you see before you, is a shadow, a reflection
Of days spent.
My carefree times are gone, I buried them last year.
Now I am old, tired and calloused.
The tenderness is gone, I no longer believe
in happily ever after.
Life has become less of a journey
Life is now a time clock.
I'm all together ready and waiting on that buzzer.
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Wow, this is so deep and sad!
I am very sorry to read about your loss.
It's a terrible tragedy when you lose someone
that you love and your life continuously goes
uphill. I wish you all the best in life and hope
that things turn around for you very soon!
Take care and thanks a lot for sharing this one
here!
Jeremy0826
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Thank you very much... I am doing better now though.
I have finally learned to just let go and live in today.
You hit the nail on the head when you described it as a continued up hill struglle though.
I find my peace in knowing I will be with him again and for now I to live for our kids, our blessings.
Thanx for reading this... brought back a lot of feelings and re reading what I was going through; so thankful I am no longer stuck in the grief. -
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You are very welcome, it's my pleasure!
Glad to hear that you are doing well now.
Take care!
Jeremy0826
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Nicole hunni as I read this I feel as I am looking in a mirror.A flashback of yesterday and a reminder of today..I feel the same way after all of these years.You do lose the tender side and unless you are blessed by a miracle your life becomes a mere existence inside. I quit believing in Happy Ever After nineteen years ago.I am still waiting on that buzzer...I love you and I am always here for you.
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SAD BUT A FEELING I KNOW OH SO WELL!!
I have felt this way also and I know with the passing of time I have not yet become old self but am making progress and you will to my friend.
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This is so sad
Honestly I think you can make a rock cry with this write. a truly well written piece, though it's seeped in terrible sadness. I wish you well on your trip back to happiness.
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Thanks Swang, I am begining to think I am truly just that... on my way back to happiness, of some sort.
i knwo I will never be the person I once was but I am starting to see a bit of light every now and then.
Thanks Friend!
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i know too many ppl like this, it hurts to think that another one of my friends is too. i wish there was something i could say, but all i can think of is keep it flowing, there is not better cure for anything then a pen, unless you are being stabbed by a pen, then i think maybe it is time for something else. keep it flowing
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Rest assured I am not totally lost to this affliction, AND I am capable of using my pen safely LOL.
No pen wounds!.
Thank you for commenting and for your kindness!
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Oh My Heart Aches
Oh my dear sweet sister I just love you and your poem, but my heart hurts so bad for your loss and the pain you feel. To feel so spent and to have run out of tears to exhaustion, I do somewhat understand. I just love you and I want to encourage you for I do see the woman in you with so much faith and strength, love with compassion for others. I know people say that to me but I too have the other part of me that goes on as well in my mind and I feel it in my body EXHAUSTION and a sense of hopelessness. Grieving is hard work. I don't think we ever truly completely stop grieving for our loved ones, so we?
Wishing you many blessings
Kelle Marie
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I think your absolutely right, we don't ever totally stop grieving our loss of our loved ones.
You summed it up perfectly when you refered to this as exahuasting, it is so terrible exhausting to be hurting so deeply.
To miss someone so much that you feel as though you've imploded and are now forced to live through it.
The loss is constant but the ache does dull, if that makes any sense at all.
Daily life becomes bearable, eventually, and it seems as though it may even start to improve from there ( in spurts ).
Thank you so much for being my friend, even through your terrible loss you have still managed to find time to comfort others.
Thank you Kelle.
Much Love Your Sis, Nicole
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Oh sweetheart... my heart is breaking reading this!! I feel your weariness in it... The battle is weighing you down. I know it's hard to feel this way about yourself, not see yourself as others see you, feel they way you think they want you to.
I can barely express what I want to say to you... how I wish I could reach my hand out to you, listen to your worries, give you a hug! Tell you that this will pass... that you deserve happiness and that I know you will heal in time.. I just know it hunny.. but it is cold comfort right now I know.
I'm so sorry for your pain, you are such a wonderful person, I hope you know that even though you don't feel it or see it right now!
Always here for you.... sending you my love!
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Actually your friendship has been a huge blessing, to both my son and myself.
In a way you have reached out your hand to us and been a wonderful and caring support.
You have been supportive and caring and a great listener ( and part time counselor lol ) to my son as well as to myself.
Thank you so much for everything you have done and for all your kindness.
Much Love and Hugz, Nicole
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