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Now I feel I've lost my chance
He's got a girlfriend and I've got a hole in my chest
Friends are all we'll ever be
and I'm not okay with that right now.

In fact, I'm just not okay.
I'm lonely, sad, and just putting on a face
most of the time it's true
the other 30 percent of the time,
you see what I want you to see.

Had an argument with my mom yesterday.
Screaming and door slamming galore.
It had nothing to do with anything
but it felt good to let it out.

I want more than I've been given.
More than this stasis I've put myself in
More than just... this.