Lost in Today

Looking back I never thought I'd be here;
The sticky-sweet situation I find myself in.
Not exactly loving someone without reciprication,
It's more of being out of control of the situation.
Confusion to no end.
Living, sleeping, and fucking with someone without them being mine.
I've changed so much, promised myself I'd never be here.
But there's something about the way you smell,
The way you walk and the words you talk.
I just don't know myself anymore.
Enlighten me on how I really am.
Lay it on the line.
I want you to want me.
I'd love to be yours.
Be only with you.
I'd tread you like a king.
It's not like me to be hung up like this.
Typically I'd be on to the next cute guy that flirted with me.
But I'm stuck on you.
And I hate it.
Why can't you just like me back.
So I don't have to write shitty poems like this.