I sit alone in my room,
dark eyes shunning the light.
Blinds drawn shut,
keeping day from my sight.
Beer after beer,
goes down my throat.
The dam is full,
overflowing is the moat.
Pain filled heart,
I just cannot stop.
I'll always drink,
until unconscious I drop.
Life has no meaning,
love has been shunned.
Gave up all hope,
of finding my "one".
Wake every morning hung over,
head throbbing hard.
It's all I can do,
to take the trash to the yard.
Needing the beer,
just to survive.
To feel halfway human,
somewhat alive.
Living only to get the money for beer,
start right after work,
till my head is not clear.
Kill the pain,
feel numb inside.
Threw away my life,
shunned my pride.
Living a lie,
lying to live.
Always taking,
would never give.
Then it all changed,
circumstances made it so.
Sober three years now,
just so you know.
My life now is good,
not great yet, but it will be.
If you have a problem,
it can be beat you see.
Author notes
If you think you have a problem with Alcohol or Drugs, you probably do. Call your local AA/NA office and find a meeting near you to attend.
Dont listen for the differences in the stories, listen for the similarities. Dont leave 5 minutes before the miracle happens.
Hi,I'm Scott and I'm an Alcoholic / Addict.
Love you Tory
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- Bleed For Me... by infinitechaos07.
600 points, ended February 1, 2008, 27 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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"Needing the beer,
just to survive.
To feel halfway human,
somewhat alive." --> admitting that isn't easy;
the key word 'need' -
it takes alot to realise how wrong that word is;
"love has been shunned.
Gave up all hope,
of finding my "one"." --> it is rather odd how we feel we must have that "one" to love us; even as a hopeless romantic I find it ... pitiful ... that humans need something, another person, another thing to feel whole; why do we? It is a good comfort to have love in life but love can be found in arms of another so why do we think we need a single one?
I wonder ...
'grats on the Honourable Mention!
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and I am so proud of you dad. it takes alot to overcome problems. it takes courage and strength and you have that all. love ya dad
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Wow I have to say I am very proud of you... It takes one hell of an individual to admit when they have a problem. For you to be able to overcome your addiction and stay sober, and discuss it freely, I give you all the kudos in the world. Congrats on being so strong and willing to offer advice to help others who are struggling! Thanks for entering my contest and best of luck! -Ky
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Great write and an excellent take on alcoholism. It's amazing the abuse a body can take and still survive. Been there myself. Happy trails neighbor
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well soulful said it all.
Shes proud of you , and well isnt it great to be proud?
Indeed. great job and i said it once and i say it again,
congrats on your sobriety, Im proud of you.
Tory
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So much raw honesty has been put into this piece. You have shared something that so many can benefit from. I am so proud of you, my friend. Keep up the fantastic work.
Soulful Woman
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