On the inside,
I am pissed.
And on the outside,
I make it seem that it’s all okay.
But it really isn’t.
What you did hurt me,
And I really don’t think that I will recover.
You knew that everyone has done it to me,
All the guys from the past,
So why did you promise me you wouldn’t,
But then went and did it anyway?
So many people are telling me that I am stupid,
I shouldn’t have taken you back so fast.
A part of me totally believes them,
Yet a part of me wants to say go away.
But they are right you know,
I am stupid to take you back,
And I should have known better than to do it.
Yet I can’t find the strength to let you go.
You must have done something to make me love you,
But what exactly it is,
I don’t think I know.
But I know one thing is for sure,
I better find out why fast.
I know one reason I can’t do it,
Is because I’m afraid of what you’ll do,
And that shows just how much I care,
Even after all the crap that you do.
And you try so hard to be controlling,
You try so hard to tell me what to do.
I know that I do the same thing too,
But they are simpler things than yours,
Like please don’t tell me whatever,
Don’t tell me that I don’t care for you.
But you try to tell me what I can’t do.
That I can’t go to see my family,
That I have to ignore God just to hang out with you.
And I guess what I am trying to say is,
I know who you are all around,
And you can be the biggest jerk,
One that has cheated,
I’m sure,
More than just once.
Yet I still take you back so willingly,
And I still care for you more than you know.
I am putting you before me,
And I need to take some time for myself.
Yet I just can’t seem to find the words,
Let alone the strength to tell you,
That even though I love you so much,
I am hating you more with each passing day.
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Thank you for the entry. :f
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This is rather long. I feel it could have said the same thing with fewer words. It borders on boring the reader. However, it has a good topic and has some great lines. Shancy.
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This is a sad piece, its full of such emotion, anger, hate. I think alot of people could relate to this. I can relate to it even. Thank you for entering and best of luck to you in my contest.
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DEPRESSING
this is really sad because i know what it's about. i think that you should tell him to read it. so that he knows how you feel.
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