A thousand tears fell down my face that night,
I was so weak, but I still tried to fight.
When you ripped off my clothes, you tore my soul,
So please tell me, was that always your goal?
When your hands touched me it stung to my heart,
Do you know that you tore my life apart?
Each night you haunt what once were happy dreams,
Now all I can think of is you, it seems.
The weight of you on my small, fragile frame,
You laughed at me like it was just a game.
I kept screaming, which seemed to make you smile,
But no sound would come out after a while.
I couldn't do much, but lie there and cry.
As oblivious people, passed on by.
I kept wishing that you had killed me too,
Cause then I wouldn't have to hide from you.
The shame, the guilt, it never goes away.
You may be free, but im stuck on that day.
It's all on repeat like some awful song,
All I can think of is, where I went wrong.
I must have deserved it, must have been bad.
You were sent to ruin all that i had.
With one act of torture, you stole my life,
Your name always cuts through me like a knife.
Your face sends freezing shivers down my spine.
And because of you I'll never be fine.
I'll always be scared to walk down my street.
So now, I'll give in and admit defeat.
Author notes
nothinglovecantheal
abuse.
A contest entry
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Amazing
This piece portrayed so many thoughts, so many feelings. It was as if I was watching it happen to you and there was nothing I could do. I felt ping ping pings on my heart from the sorrow that was pelting through me from the poem. I am really sorry for you, and I hope that you never ever see this man again.
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Lovely
Quite haunting, beautiful art.
"When I was young I never needed anyone and making love was just for fun those days are gone".
This is for you.
A strand of silk
They gather in the corner of the eye
they gain weight
gravity no longer forgives
silently they fall, a special song
we sing it with first cry
never the last, a gentle rain
no two alike
dragging across the skin
a cut within, slowly at first
picking up flakes of flesh
floating in a Saltin Sea
designed to draw the pain away
to sooth the heart, washing aches away
like lead they fall
they know what's best for you
can't be hidden
a bath to cool the fire
better trust'em
a taste of wet at the lips
a strand of silk
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this poem is excuisite it is sad and angry at the same time it could be about any thing from rape to abuse it speaks to people who went through simillar pain it opens the mind to the truth of the dark side of the world. I find it very emotionally entriguing the use of strong words catches the readers attention and keeps it over all i loved it
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This is a painful and sad write. You have done a wonderful job expressing some very painful emotions here. This poem is written very well, and it takes a great amount of courage to share this kind of pain. So many can be helped by your strength in your words, and know that they are not alone. Thanks for sharing this and please keep on writing. Blessings, Patty
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Excellent write but very painful. It happens oh to often. Thank you for entering the contest.
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its really nice... all this words that said is true..that can catch a million hearts..
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You did a marvelous job on this. A stunning quality, I hadn't expected to find it so well written.
A night of rape can seem to destroy someone forever. The same goes for any sexual crime.
Great job.
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You actually entered this into one of my past contests... so yeah. Thanks for entering
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"When your hands touched me it stung to my heart," - I would suggest making the word "stung" "attached" or if not changing the word, removing "to" to have "stung my heart,".
"Cause then I wouldn't have to hide from you." - the words "Because" and "Cause" are two different words, with two different meanings. I would suggest placing an apostrophe in front of "Cause".
"You may be free, but im stuck on that day." - "im" should be "I'm".
"All I can think of is, where I went wrong." - shouldn't there be a question mark at the end of this line? Whether you're really asking anyone a question (even if to yourself) is irrelevant.
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this was put in my contest and some how it got removed can you please reenter it thanks.
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This is a powerful poem. Great structure and rhyme. You have my empathy for what you have gone through. I hope over time the pain is dulled and you no longer have to be scared.
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Sounds like the worst experience of your life. Did this really happen? My heart goes out to you for having had to go through such an awful experience as that. However your poem here was amazing to read. You are so talented. Chin up.. you'll be alright.
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Wow, this is so amazing. I loved it. I loved all of the raw emotion, and I was nearly in tears reading this. I can also relate to this. This is an awesome write, and I hope to read more of your work in the future.
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your words are very moving and as i was reading your poem, i felt that pain. this was very well-written.
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wowww very deep and very good flow. it was sooo sad i hope this really didnt happen to you but very greatly written!
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This was a very deep and emotional write. I've been here before, and you put down each feeling well. The only thing I didn't like was how it wasn't completely original. I've heard a lot of the phrases before in other similar poems. Nonetheless, it took strength to write this.
Thank you for entering, and good luck
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really really touching sweetheart! so sorry you feel like this, but it is never your fault..you didnt ask for it.
take care hun xxx
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This is one of the few poems I have read so far, that stood out too me, because of the great flow and description. great job. For this reason I add you too the finalist list, well done.
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I will edit the grammar mistakes
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"The shame, the guilt, it never goes away.
You may be free, but im stuck on that day.
Its all on repeat like some awful song,
All i can think of is, where i went wrong. " these lines are very moving you text is quite hard to understand, i suggest a different colour. Your start is a bit typical im sorry to say, its just ive heard that phrase before something different which really grasps you would be excellent
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This is a really good poem. I like to read poems like these so I know that people have felt the same way I did when I had something similar happen to me. Thanks for entering.
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I can barely hold in my rage. I am constantly amazed and disgusted of the cruelties some men will inflict. I'm sorry that you live in fear, stuck in a moment that should never have happened......It's not rubbish by the way....
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I don't know if this is something that ever gets fully healed, I'm not at that place in my life to know, as of yet. But I do know that you are not defeated, by the sheer fact that you wrote this. Words wield a powerful weapon, if only to strengthen yourself against the darkness and the memories.
It isn't rubbish, nothing that comes from the heart and the farthest reaches of the soul over is. I hope for one day that you will be able to surface above the pain in your life.
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I commend you on letting this pain and darkness that was inside you out...it's hard, but it helps to heal and I always find it in writing it out...
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Oh sweetheart
None of this was your fault, but another person's evil. I know it doesn't feel any better... I know the guilt and shame that can come with this... but you will be able to move past this, not forget, but move on... in time, once your soul has been healed and you are shown that you are worth every bit of happiness that us on here know you deserve!!
This was so sad... but definitely not rubbish babe... I don't think you could write rubbish if you tried... it's beautifuly written! Trust your talent...
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