When I was young, my fathers idea of punishment was to lock me in the closet and leave me there for long periods of time. Because of this I've suffered from claustrophobia and panic attacks in the middle of the night. I was afraid of being in the dark for along time. It even causes me panic attacks and paranoia in my adult life also.
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How can you trust someone who locks you in a closet as a child.
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Later in life I was in the Navy. unless you have seen the berthing area of a naval vessel you would have a hard time visualizing this. your sleeping area was almost coffin like. 3'x6' with curtains for privacy. I would wake up in the middle of the night and think I was on fire and couldn't excape. I would start kicking the top of the berth, which is the berth above you, screeming and hollaring for help. At the time, I had a pretty good Idea that there was something seriously wrong mentally. I was afraid to seek any sort of help, thinking I would be committed to a mental hospital for life. Eventually I had a complete mental breakdown and was admitted to a psychiatric hospital and was diagnosed. Scarest time in my life. I didn't know what was gonna happen. I stayed long enough to be treated with drug and group therapy. I was released but went through 3 psychiatrist before I found one who actually got me leveled off on medication and really helped me mentally. You never really know whats happening to you
sometimes. I am fortunate enough to have a spouse that can tell when I am getting out of hand and gets me back on the right track. -
what a great write!..thanks a lot for sharing, Just don't be upset. I can feel your pain.
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I feel for you
I hope that you are able to seek out a good therapist. Take care of yourself.
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