I’m not supposed to think it, much less say it – that’s a Sin,
But Suicide seems like a choice when you’ve seen what I’ve seen.
The best choice? No, maybe not even one listed as Good,
But the other side beckons at the edges of my mood.
Like a deep gash it cuts across the landscape of my mind
Dividing me from healing hope and peace I need to find.
Some days it feels like miles of calm and smiles fill up my view
And I can plan ahead to goals and dream my dreams anew.
But in the deepest, darkest quiet hours of the night
I turn and find the gash has somehow come back into sight.
The nearest edge is jagged, it’s rough edges seem to call
“Come closer! Look! It really will not hurt you if you fall!”
I move near to that edge, tempted, considering the line
Between the soothing quiet depths, and my tormented mind.
It looks so easy – just to leave the problems in my life,
No more confusion, struggles, pain, or any other strife.
I back up just a bit, to think about the how and when,
Reflecting that once done, I‘ll never have to choose again.
Wait.
No more choices is an even smaller, stronger cage
Than all the whirling nonsense that is causing me this rage.
So this time, I come back to face the demons of the night,
Convinced it’s worth the effort needed to keep in the fight.
I’ve thought about the choice and suicide seems cowardly.
But the option hasn’t changed, and the dark still waits for me.
What comes to your mind when you hear theword "suicide"?
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Perfect.
To be honest, I wish I didn't have to highlight the text to read it, but once I got to the text, it was perfect. It says so much about what so many of us can't express in words.
The lines I can't help but relate to:
"I’ve thought about the choice and suicide seems cowardly.
But the option hasn’t changed, and the dark still waits for me" and
"Like a deep gash it cuts across the landscape of my mind
Dividing me from healing hope and peace I need to find.
Some days it feels like miles of calm and smiles fill up my view
And I can plan ahead to goals and dream my dreams anew."
Amazing write. Keep on!
xXxChristinaxXx
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ah i think we all have found ourselves in that darkness in the night and have considered it, to live or die, which road to take, it is a tricky one sometimes, a good poem. glad i brought my torch with me.
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Interesting to highlight the work to read
Well written - sometimes life sucks but at least it always offers us the looming promise of tommorow. Raw and real 
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I think most of us have experienced the hopeless feeling to the point that we have at least thought about suicide. I am thankful that the blessings of life come again to mind sooner or later and show us that life is worth living.
Lord Shine Upon You,
Brian
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Wow, this is just amazing. It is harsh and so completely honest. I am sure that many have had these thoughts at one time or another. I know I have. The key is to remember that there always is some reason to go on, even if it cannot be seen right at that moment. Never fall to that moment when all seems lost, because with the light you always will find some reason. Just as in these lines, "I back up just a bit, to think about the how and when,
Reflecting that once done, I‘ll never have to choose again.
Wait.", once you have taken that step, you will never have the chance to again see the reasons to keep on going.
I hope that whatever has caused you to feel this pain has somehow been healed. As far as your writing goes, it truly is an amazing piece.
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WOW! What a write!
Everyone probably has, or will think about that alternative at some point during their existence. I don’t believe I have ever seen a more vivid description of such an agonizing decision than this one. You have made it come to life, and brought to reality that the decision would be final. Thanks for turning back, and bringing us this write.
Bless you, Ron
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this is a good write.
i like this, what school do you teach? what grade level. this seems like a day @ any school with the fears of children that you hold dear to your heart and soul. Teachers are possed to change the world, so, I think you are defintely gonna make a huge difference in someone's life.
please tell me if i'm wrong, and tell me what it is really about.
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I Really Liked This Poem
It Inspiers Me To Write
I Relaly Respect Your View On Suicide Aand For that I Respect You aS A Person
You're A Great Poet And For that Keep It up
XD
xx
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A very powerful write. Losing my fiance years ago to a suicide I can tell you, your loved ones will go through the pain forever. I know we all think about it at times in our lives when things become too much but hold onto your strength and faith. Thank you for sharing with us. Take care, Sandy
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Yes indeed
We are so very unaware aof whats happening right before our eyes.
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Agony beautifully written
And a very wise conclusion and choice in the exit line ...
I am sorry that I could not yet into chat about my Penniless Dreams poem, but I tried. Thank you for the invitation, nevertheless. If there is anything you want to ask or say, please IM me.
Be Blessed, dear one.
Myra
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When I read a poem like this, I don't know what to think except to put my arms out for a hug and give you a little light.
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