lest forgotten

tried to forget you
i cant
tried to banish you
i cant
tried to be without you
i cant
tried not to hurt
i cant
tried to hold steadfastly
i cant
tried to be strong
i cant

your thoughts are in my mind.
the actions.
the words.
the messages.
the laughs.
the cries.
the arguments.

i cant be strong without you.
i cant hold on steadfastly without you.
i cant stop hurting without you.
i cant be without you.
i cant banish you.
i cant forget.

i cry.
silently.
awaiting.
a return.
that wont come back.
you.
cant love me.
cant love anyone.
i miss you.
words hang in midair.
awaiting grasping.
i reach and catch air.
i lost you.
i lost myself.
i miss you.
i love you.
i await for you.
so i await alone till i die.