Soulmate

I will not be pressured
Cause I’m trying to be strong

I will not compromise
I will not give in
Cause only I will protect me
No one else will

I am not in denial
I am being strong
Doing so will not break me

I am only one, on my own fighting
But you don’t understand

I got lost in the darkness/I wasn’t really/I was smothered by it/Hands squeezes the hands of the man/So confused by the act going on between his body and mine/Confused by the out pour of anger in him it hit like a wave/Confused and hurt deeply by this, this means something/It was symbolic/Honestly the act of hands holding each other was calming/It was the only thing that felt real/Only our hands.

Out of this darkness was this anger/It mixed with so much pain/I don’t know any better/I thought this pain/ was really his love for me/I’m afraid to have it/Afraid to touch it/Teeth in my skin!/Sharp pain over and over again/Don’t give me pain/Give me your love/I cam by this bright fire and you could just feel the dread and hate and anger coming forth from him/He really wanted to love/Feel this hate come from him/It could almost burn the skin/All he wanted to do is love/His method was just wrong.

Stop!/No more please!/Just read my pleads/Hear my cries/Hear me call your name/This makes me afraid/Water and fear played follow the leader in my body/His hate, his love, his lust, his anger/Balled into a ball/A knot/His body cries: love me like I want to love you/It boiled in my body!/That’s how great it was/Powerful/Stop the madness!

I
          Fall
                        On

                                    Knees

                                                    So

                                                              Hard

I fall on my heart too/Look if I can’t plead with you, let me plead to the one that can change things/Beyond him, beyond this man/This would be lover, friend, Soulmate, husband maybe/This would be husband that is in the middle of/this act of rape/while he does not hear my cries to stop/So I ask the Father to lead a hand please/Show me what makes him so angry inside/I love him/I don’t wish to see him this way/I looked him in the eyes, Father, and could see the man I thought I knew/I looked inside him Father, as far as a human could look inside another/Father, he is deep like me/Torn like me/On his face, I see he only has eyes for me/Tells me how beautiful and tells me how much he needs me and misses me when he hears from me again/Father, give me a small chance to see through this.

On his feet he is standing/Wraps his arm around me/As if, his body is saying this is my woman/And pulls me to him/Here I have no terms/No voice/No pull/No clout/I am invisible.

I am not sure at this point if that’s good or bad/Either way I still fear/No amount of words can bury this fear inside me/You’ve never been a woman/You’ve never experienced this/I would never wish it on you/But you do deserve to/So how can you understand?/I give you everything I can/If you want it/You feel that isn’t enough/I love you so much Tiano, how can I make you see?