Welcome, old friend!
How are you?
Has it really been so long?
What, I don’t look well?
What can I say?
If you had only been there,
supporting me with my paranoias,
with my hatred.
My undeniable tendency,
to destroy everything
that I have in my life
with my apathy.
My uselessness.
My self-hatred cancer,
that multiplies, consumes,
defiles all the good in myself.
Well, maybe then....
I don’t look well you say?
You don’t like the way I look?
I do.
Why be so jealous and hateful?
After all, is it not true?
Are you not me?
I know you used to be.
Let me introduce you to my new friends.
Meet hope.
Meet strength, belief, focus, power,
direction, understanding, love and purpose.
I hope you like them.
I am not a new self,
neither am I the ‘old’ self,
I am just MYSELF.
Do not go, my old friend!
Stay!
There is still room for you,
but do not stay long,
it hurts me too much.
I now know that
I no longer have
any further need for this.
It’s time that I made you
feel useless, made you
feel alone, cold, ugly,
insane and unwanted.
Oh, you won’t stay?
Ah well, too bad.
You know where the door is.
Don’t look so sad.
I’m sure you’ll find someone else
who’s lost, confused and afraid,
you always do.
(21/4/94 – Slight revision 23/1/08)
Author notes
Username: Evil Fills The Sky
Option 3: Depression
This piece is about depression, self-hatred etc, but is more about rising out of it and making a change.
This piece was written in 1994 and might seem a little off-kilter, this is on purpose as it is written as 'talking in the mirror' to yourself, so to speak. This piece was part I later integrated into a larger piece called 'The Room' which amalgamated a short story piece called 'The Room' and a few other pieces into a cohesive story. I was in the process of elaborating and expanding it, but put it aside for a while (and never got around to doing it), since then, the larger piece has unfortunately been lost with this, 'The Room' and one other piece, I think, still remaining.
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cool but look at the rules once. i wanted th option and your username. but otherwize it was a wonderful poem! great job but before i judge do what it says! oh and I LOVE IT!
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Sorry, I put the option number at the start of the notes (though I've mispelled it lol) but I was that busy typing up the notes I forgot my user-name, I'll fix that now. Many thanks.
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fasinatinly fantastic.
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Thank you very kindly.
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