Oh Father, I'm Sending You My Love

I admit, Oh Father, I was weak and shallow,
And what happened was partly my doing.
I admit, Oh Father, I followed willingly
To the doom that was wickedly brewing.

I fought back with every inch of strength,
Oh Father, you would have been proud.
Though he bound my arms and choked my throat,
I screamed so very loud.

I fell for his charm and his easy good looks,
But your preaching never escaped my mind.
Oh Father, he melted my heart with words so strong,
And I'm sorry for being so blind.

He played around first and slapped me up,
But, Oh Father, I didn't beg or cry.
I kept my mouth shut from all the pain,
And whispered to you my good bye.

His grip was strong, and he tore my clothes
Father, there was so much rage in his core.
I kept my eyes shut and held my breath
As he stole my innocence and more.

It felt like sharp knives lodged below,
And all I could hear were his quickened breaths.
My hair was ripped with every shove,
Father, I bled internally before my death.

Every bone broke against his weight,
And every stab stole my breath away.
Father, the agony ripped me up to shreds,
Is there anything more to say?

He didn't know I was still alive when
He began cutting me limb from limb.
He threw me into a daunting hole,
Father, he was shaking with pleasure so grim.

I imagine he was high for days after
The life he savagely ended.
And I imagine, Father, you blamed yourself
For a crime you could not have comprehended.

My soul endured unimagineable pain,
And, boy, I was so frightened.
But, Father, now the feeling is gone,
And my mood has significantly brightened.

I smile in my new home,
And I look down on you with hope.
That, Father, you will stop crying
And finally learn to cope.

He might not be found, and he may be dangerous,
But I believe he will he lose in the end.
Father, you must be strong for mom and the girls,
And count your blessings every moment with them you spend.

I admit, oh Father, I made my mistakes
But I'm wonderfully happy too.
My bones are decaying, but my soul's renewing
And I'm sending my love to you.

So Father be happy,
Father be glad,
Father spread the love I shine on you.
The day's are coming,
The mornings are new,
And I'll always be there with you.