Waves

Anger

Moving against all reason
As inhibitions subside
Privy now to the hatred
Kept so deep inside

Bottled up it has been
Forever locked away
And now it screams and howls
As it sees light of day

The impulses take over
The rage takes full control
In an act of self preservation
To somehow save my soul

Frustration

I live and I die
And somewhere in between
I’m expected to keep
My moral slate clean

You ask of me so much
And I ask nothing at all
Except that you catch me
As I’m sure to fall

You’re growing accusations
That I’m not worthy of this
I spit on all your dreams
And of what you insist

Blame

I have played by all your rules
But your game, it is not fair
I have tried seeking my answers
In mediation and in prayer

But you still stay so far
And your world, it is not just
You’ve betrayed my unconditional love
And you’ve forsaken all my trust

I’m condemned for my beliefs
My life is a nothing short of fraud
How dare you have the arrogance
To call yourself My God

Sovereignty

I am deity of my own life
I control my destiny and fate
I am the God of my existence
And everything I have, I create

In my world there is no suffering
In my universe there is no damnation
I am the Alpha and Omega
I am the only salvation

Trickle past me simple creatures
They know not what they do
Forgive them their sin
and forgive me mine too

Unworth

I try again and again
To find myself in this world
To define my individuality
And yet all that comes unfurled

As every dream that I have dreamt
Lies broken gone and done
Under the heel of reality
I am not a special one

My love not worth receiving
My life not worth living
My wishes not worth wishing
My sins not worth forgiving

Submittance

Take from me my innocence
Take from me my pride
Take from me my mind
And all that lies inside

I am tired of fighting you
I cannot do this by myself
But to make a man of me
I cannot ask for help

I cannot ask for companionship
You say I must face this alone
And so with no one by my side
I lose my heart, spirit, and bone

Faith

There is no light in front of me
There is no light behind
I cannot see the light I search for
Because this light is mine

This body may see suffering
This mind may imagine death
This soul knows that for all I’ve lost
I still have one thing left

My body will always heal
My mind will surely grow
My soul will undoubtedly lead me
To only where I must go