I made that leap
I took the chance, the risk
I restarted my tightrope walk
Without my safety net.
For you I faced my fear
For you I played with death
Of course, of course
Why did I blindfold myself from it?
I fell...
I knew I would, I knew I would
I half expected you to catch me
I half expected you to prove me wrong
I trusted you
I gave into you
I believed you
I wanted you
I thought you were better for me
I thought you would be it
Trying to get me back, huh?
Trying to hurt me the way I hurt you?
I was trying, I tried, and I finally fixed it
Why aren't you trying anymore?
What happened to those things you said?
What happened to the words you promised?
I can't even tell you how I feel
I'm not too sure right now
It's just.....whatever
What the Hell are you doing?
What the Hell are you thinking?
What the Hell?
What about all that stuff?
You know that stuff...
What the Hell, huh?
You've gotten very good at avoiding me
You've gotten very good at being cruel to me
I made my decision.
I will wait
I will hurt
I will not stray from my decision.
What is your decision?
What is your decision?
You need time
You need to think
I needed time
I needed to fix something
You aren't getting me back this way. No.
You aren't getting me back this way.
You just want to be cruel
Is that it?
What about all that stuff?
You know that stuff
What about giving me half an answer
An answer that I always gave you.
It's either or, hun
It's not difficult in the least
If you don't love me anymore...
How can i believe you ever loved me at all?
Author notes
~tearsofasith~
for the contest~ i threw away a secure future for a chance to be happy with this guy and he went a long time not talking to me and avoiding me and my family and finally i caught him and he told me we were not together. he is being a complete ass and so immature. he has and still is handling this situation so poorly and i lost so much respect for him. I thought he was so wonderful and so worth it. i wrote this the day before he told me and he read it a few minutes before he told me.
he told me so many things and promised so much more. i believed him, like a foolish girl. theres more to it but thats all i'll put.
egh...had to get it out. not all of it got out though.
A contest entry
- Broken promisses... by Wolf Mistress.
1200 points, ended February 23, 2008, 39 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - My Broken Heart Lies Bleeding by SchizoChic.
600 points, ended February 29, 2008, 31 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - You deserved much better!!!!! by Great Cthulhu.
1450 points, ended March 16, 2008, 41 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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that jerk!!! your better off without him -
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oh God I know....
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Vent away!
Wow, you got a lot off your chest with this write. Isn't it amazing what insanity we will put ourselves through for the chance for love. Excellent words, keep your pen to the page! Thanks for entering! -
Very personal and deep. I feel your pain.
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Wow..I must say you wrote a very good song here about a very sad event...and it happend to be about your own love life...
I suggest you could find a good band to play this...
I really loved it although I am sorry this happend to you...
Take care
Good luck in my contest
XXJeannette
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oh hun. dont let him get to you so hard. I know its really hard not to - but you just have to gain the strength. you took a chance - a risk.. like everyone has to do sometime in their life - yeah it wasnt expected, but what is?? nothing.. exactly. maybe - not trying to say anything for you to get upset with me - but maybe you jumped in it a little soon. I know you were dreading to be his, to be in his arms and love, to be happy cause "others" weren't giving it to you anymore, but I think you shouldnt had did it so soon. Im just speaking my opinion.. of course you dont have to listen. guess now all that can be done is just go with the flow. I wish there were words that could be spoken to help you heal from this hurt. but the voice.. is speechless. while I was reading this - I could hear you in my head.. every phrase that needed to be accented, yeah! I could tell
if you need someone... you know Im always here. talk!! I WILL listen.
LOVE YA!!!!!
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Kierkegaard?
Strange that Kierkegaard had a work titled Either/or and talked about the leap of faith. If you don't know him, maybe you are his reincarnation.
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