[ I pretend to be strong but I am not... ]

I pretend to be strong but I am not...
I pretend not to need anyone when all I do is need people...
I put on a happy face all the time even though I am torn apart inside...
I don't let people get close...
I push them away when all I really want is a warm hug...
A sweet word...
I am scared to show myself for who I really am..
I loved..I trusted..I gave my body and soul...
What happened?
I was hurt...A knife went through my heart..
That's what I felt...
The last year has been hell...
I cried myself asleep for so many years..Afraid....
I still cry..
Who know's ? No one
Some times I hate the whole world...
Yes, blamimg the world makes you feel a lot better...
Does it resolve anything? No
Everything is your own personal choice
Why is it so hard to just be yourself?