sitting and staring

sitting down
staring at this screen
watching my thoughts come alive
right in front of me
never thought i could be so alive
when i feel so dead
tired of fighting
tired of living
just want to lay down
give up on this horrid fight
cant you see?
i am drained
don't you know?
im done for now
i cant fight one more swing
i cant give up anymore
when ive given up on it all
i have nothing left to give
but still its take and take
while i give my soul to people
its in so many places
i cant control my destiny
i just sit and stare
as my memories show me
what ive done
and whats gone wrong
ive sat down
and messed my life up
and theres no way
to get that back
and i dont think i have enough
to get back up

so watch me
learn from me
sitting and staring
as im losing my way
find your own
its the only way
people can live