You hate me
And make me too small to hate you
i want to die
Because nothing i do with you or to you matters
You’ve killed me
And when i sleep at night
I fantasize about getting back at you
To make you feel all you've done to me
I fantasize about moving on
And being happy.
Because i don’t know what that means anymore
But they remain just fantasies
You have to constantly remind me
That i cannot succeed
i am just a mess
i am small
i am helpless
i am a disgrace
i am wrong
i am a mistake
i want a friend
i want someone to let me know
That you are not the world
i want to die
i want to die
i fucking want to die!
i hate you
Even though you make it hit back at me
Even though you gloat when i hurt
And you don't notice when i blink or breathe
You want a rope around my neck?
You really want to know that am serious?
What the hell should i do to make you feel me?
You behave like a beast
Am empty
You are rich
You have taken everything from me
Including my right to breathe
And desperate as it is,
i long for the day i shall get some genuine approval from you
Because in your eyes, am worthless
Vain
Empty
Foolish
Worthless
I am Worthless…
You make me feel like am living somebody's life
Like i do not have a right to live
Why don't you just take that as well?
Am tired of feeling this way
Numb me, kill me
That is bearable
Just free me from all this
i need you
And i just need you to kill me
i hate you
Because i love you too much
And you blame me for everything
You blame me for your lack of sleep
For my pain
For all the fights
i never get anything right
Even batting my eyelids
i am useless
i don't know a thing
i am stupid
i do not exist.
A contest entry
- Broken promisses... by Wolf Mistress.
1200 points, ended February 23, 41 entries
Honorable winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Make Me Cry by Blooming Poet.
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These are just my feelings, not necessarily a poem.
Comments
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Obviosuly you needed to get this out of your head and onto paper. You might want to go through and edit now, lots of errors
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interesting write a lot of emotion the real queston is why do 'you' feel like that may sound harsh but I have been there and well I allowed it for my reasons.
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Damn! I'm speechless...
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Oh wow...you described that feeling well...to lose yourself into someone...but only to get hurt by them...
I do hope you know you are worth a true love, you're clever and exactly knowing what you need in your life...Never let anybody make you feel this way again because you deserve so much more....
Wishing you love and hapiness,
and good luck in my contest
XXJeannette
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What Pain You've Penned
in such a way as to leave no doubts as to the depths of which it runs. Your words leave an indelible image on the eyes and soul of one who takes the time to read.
Prayerfully, remain strong, keep your head up and continue to walk to the beat of your own drum, being assured of your true identity. All else will follow, in time.
PureCountry
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Please read the rules...
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heartache
I ache for your sadness on top of my own now, brings me to pen more I hope you are getting out what you need to, powerful write
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Oh hun, First let me say this was a pain i have felt many many times. Second you are worth everything never let a man pull you down so far that you dont want to live because then you give in to what they want.
You are very much alive and worthy of love ....every woman is and i am proof of this. I finally got the balls to leave the man that tortured my life for 19 yrs and ya know what i am very peaceful now.
Try hun to bring yourself up.
biggggggg hugssss
~lisa~
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Thanks so much for your kind words.I so look forward to the day I'll look back at all this as my past.
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Termatic
i want a friend
i want someone to let me know
That you are not the world
Very disterbing verse
The words were hard to read
I do hope you find some peace
Writing can offer great reliefe
Rick
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"i hate you
Because i love you too much"
That pretty much says it all right there. Pain. Unrequited love. Damn does it hurt huh?
Great poem.
Unfaithfully Your's
Of Blood and Tears
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Oh so heart wrenching. I feel your pain your sadness and your betrayal. I wish you the best of luck.
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Ouch! This was painful to read. I hope it's mostly hyperbole. Been there and known the feeling all to well. Sorry
But great write. Good luck in the contest!
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