The Mask

This mask I dawn
It shall conceal
When I have it on
The pain that I feel.

I know it's wrong
For me to bide
I wish I were strong
But I can only hide.

This joy and glee
Is only a show
They think they see
But they don't really know.

On the outside
I look great
But on the inside
I'm filled with hate.

They think I'm good
But they cannot hear
My hidden mood
Or the thoughts that I fear.

But the mask falls
And gives them a chance
To bombard me with calls
When they get a glance.

This darker side
The evil in me
Where I try to hide
Is what they see.

I grab the mask
And put it back on
Before they can ask
If anything is wrong.

If they get curious
I simply lie
I don't want them furious
I'd rather just cry.

I know it's bad
For me to do
But they'd be so mad
If they only knew.

It's better this way
If I hide behind the frame
Right here I can stay
And wallow in shame.

I don't want them to know
This pain that I feel
Though I keep up this show
It's blatantly real.

I live in fear
Hoping no one will ask
But if they come near
I simply hide behind my mask.