Sliping Up

I kept thinking life was a nightmare,
Something that I could prevent given
Enough time; Tears were never there,
Never permitted to fall, he's unforgiven.

It was voodoo, a spell was cast that night,
And the two nights after, swirls of magic
And deception; Eyes so full of love and light,
Heart so full of madness, life so melodramatic.

It happened, it's done, forgotten for now,
Until life comes hurtling back, headstrong.
My head's full of memories, of why and how,
Wondering what he did for me to play along.

It's been a long journey, trying to forget,
But forgetting only happens when you come
To term with yourself; I, haphazardly, let
Him in. Looking back, I feel so dumb.

I could have stopped the madness in him,
But I chose to ignore what hurt me in the end.
I thought I could love him, but that was when
I didn't realize that I'd be starting over again.

He ruined me in those three nights,
And so much has changed since then.
Each a seperate incident, a seperate fight.
I'm convinced that they'll never happen again.