Twisted and Fragile (Mad Seasons)

I feel my mind twisting and my soul fragile,
I cannot just see what is ahead of me.
And I cannot look back at the past either,
To where where I have been coming from.

I can feel myself just aimlessly wandering,
As if on a tightrope I find myself walking.
I always try to keep myself forever moving,
At a nice steady pace throughout life.

I feel I'm screaming st the world from inside,
Sometimes without speaking any words out loud.
I'm distrusting everything that's around me,
Including my own simple decisions I've made.

I need to find within myself some direction,
Easing the fear and heartaches that appear.
I cannot help but to keep on hoping there is,
A way showing me some of the light up ahead.

My loneliness seems to thrive upon my thoughts,
The nothingness that's surrounding who I am.
A simpleness of what life and love really is,
Seems to make me yearn for it all right now.

I find myself with restless feelings forming
Always searching onwards for the answers.
All the why's whereas' and the how's felt daily,
I end up only with my inner frustrations.

I desire love and want freindship again,
These are needed for me to survive
Without feeling these inside of me complete,
A big emptiness and voids engulfs my soul.