You'll never know how much i love you

Because not talking is just fine
and no, i don't miss you
no, you don't cross my mind
no matter what you do.

because waiting for  you
clearly makes my day
and no, i love it
when you have nothing to say.

because letting my heart break
may be the funnest thing of all
and i love hearing your voice mail
when you don't answer my call.

because dropping a word
may just hurt your hand
don't worry about it
i completely understand.

because i live to hear silence
you have nothing to say
so am i boring you?
do you want to go away?

who am I?
the girl who hopes in vain?
knows even after she writes this
her heart will be in pain.

Who am I
but the girl with her heart on fire?
keeps saying forever
as she walks out on the wire.

who am i
besides the girl who deals with it?
cries out every night
but never changes shit.

Who am I?
but the girl who says: sorry, what to do?
who knows you won't say anything back
but still loves you.