When I was falling and falling through the ground, when roots and soil were burying me before my time, you made me smile. My pulse was like a hummingbird beating its wings, and I was sure that at any moment it would stop altogether. You looked so much like someone I'd want to love when you laughed, and against my better judgement, I gave in.
How many minutes did I count down until I could be in your presence once again? Too many. How long did I imagine you could love me back? Years. But instead you found someone besides me to laugh with, and I only wanted you to be happy. And why shouldn't you be? You now have a girl who cares about you, because I obviously never mattered.
At all.
The truth is, I don't think she loves you as much as I did, my dear once-friend. I would have done so much for you, because you made me fly. And as I flew I felt an elation that I know I'll never feel again. Why did you have to make my true smiles turn into fake ones? Why did you have the need to throw me away, wings and all? To forget me and my naive contentment when you were around?
Why?
And I think that though my memories will always love you, my heart will never give in again. I'll never again pretend to be happy for someone like you, who gave up someone that was there all along for a girl that only wanted a boyfriend. So are you happy?
I hope you are.
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RayniFebruary
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That was a wonderful read. Actually that, and the fact that I'm in this exact same situation right now, made me burst into tears. "And I think that though my memories will always love you, my heart will never give in again." I could not express this feeling any more accurately. :applaud:
"I'll never again pretend to be happy for someone like you, who gave up someone that was there all along for a girl that only wanted a boyfriend. So are you happy?"
That is what i'd like to say to my once-friend. I hope she was worth it.
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this is such a good write, i am applaud. it's perfect for my contest. i just want one thing... but only becuase i would love to read more of your writes, is your ap name in the author's comment box ♥ this is an amazing write
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