Tonight, i watched tears of my children
grief stricken faces
The first time we realized what people say is true
(Divorce is as close to a death as you can get)
Tears fell in waves
even my own,
as i comforted them one by one
so many mixed emotions
Did he give us up for mere drugs
Whys of how it all happened.
A grown boy embarrassed cause
know one ever showed him, how to air a car tire up.
I want to be angry
wanted to cuss
Instead my littlest pushed me away
as he finally broke.
All i could do is watch myself
pick up the pieces of the wreckage
Kids are better
now i sit knowing
for the first time
I am a single mom
I looked at them and thought
may angels wings comfort you.
So we had a bad day
Tomorrow will be better
and we are not the destruction of a man
but rather the survivors of bondage's.
Author notes
prompt - Angel
My notes today we had a bad day of relizations,
There always hope and if my kids read this.
Well ...So we had a bad day and together as a team we got through this one.
Always know
Mom loves you and even when you cant see past the tears your dad does love you but right now he cant show it drugs block his vision.
My prayer is that he heals hiself first then one day he can look at you in a new light.
As for me ...
life will go on and the happier days of my life will surface.
I will find that i was better than any drug.
I will gather my courage and look for the good in me.
I love ya guys 143 always and forever.
Mom
~Lisa~
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1700 points, ended February 2, 2008, 17 entries
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Sometimes we must forgive ourselves for doing certain things, because in the end we know that even though what we did may seem aweful in anothers eyes, it was the right thing to do. This was a beautiful write and I am sure someday your little one will understand why things happened the way they did.
Thank you for this beautiful entry.
~Krys~
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This is such a great write, so many emotions swelled in me It seemed as if I was there crying with you. Your kids are so lucky to have a mom like you. Don't ever forget that.
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great write, so much emotion, i love it. have faith things will get better!
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Such a heartwrenching poem of an ending that hurts yet is for survival. I wish you luck in all you do and for the strength for a brigher tomorrow. Each has his own life to live,,,each has their own choice...take the choice that is best for you.
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Dear one...if the poem is true...a decision made, and a mother hurting along with her children, my heart is with you..I know some of what you speak...Feeling like a single parent.....You have written from your heart, and don't think for a minute, your children don't know how you have tried....YOu are not alone....You are in my prayers....Beautiful tearful write.....
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This is very deep and sad.
I am sorry that you had such a rough day.
But, it's these days that help to shape us
and make us stronger individuals. I do hope
that everything works out for you and your
family. Children are so important and when
they are affected by these types of behavior
it can be a very terrible thing. Thanks a lot
for sharing your story here and all the best
to you with this one in the contest! Take
care my friend!
Jeremy0826 -
I am sorry for you and the little ones, know some idea of the pain and heartache you are sharing. if there is anything I can do, please I am happy to help in any way.Prayer to God at this time would be source of comfort to all of you. just come together and pray for God to give you the strength to handle this today and get into tomorrow. You can do it, and the strength from God will come. I know. He has helped me many times, as i sit on death`s doorstep. I am sorry for you, and pray God will bless you individual and as a family to get through this.
you can do it, and it will be alright.
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