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I lost myself in the end

I lost my happiness when I was ten
when my uncle thought it was o.k to try and get in.
He spoke words that shouldn't have been said
at the end of the night I wished I was dead.

I was happy back then,beautiful,smart,and kind
but it was all taken from me when he lost his mind
At age thirteen,i tried to take my life
my grades were falling,i couldn't handle the strife.

At age fourteen i lost my innocence because i thought it was o.k
what i didn't know was that i was the one that was going to pay.
Everyone was doing it is what he said to me
the most dumbest thing i did was to believe.

I tried to keep my emotions hid
after he found out I thought I was having his kid.
I found out i wasn't and told myself I wouldn't speak to him again
I told myself I was just completely done with men.

I started to become depressed,cutting myself and doing drugs
my parents tried to help,yet I pushed away all their love.
I gained a bunch of weight and didn't want to be noticed anymore
I was done with being taken advantage of and then being told I was a whore.


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  • Mango Memories gold member
    July 22

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    God.

    " you cant have the rainbow without the rain "

    Breathe that in.


    and read


    http://allpoetry.com/board/topic/268659807



  • Sue Cardwell gold member
    January 30, 2008

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    Thank you for your entry in our contest. You have put across a very strong message.

    Please join us in the final contest of the series. New writes only this time, pre-writes will be DQ'd.
    We look forward to reading more from you.

    Sue and Jeff


  • MuRdEr---13
    January 14, 2008

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    well....thats the same thing I said that I was done with men but obviously if you read my poem their not done with me if they can't get it willingly they just take it!!!! but wait not all men are like that but yea I know what you are talking about good poem it's sad but it's good you should maybe rearrange "he found out I thought I was gonna have his kid" "so he called mean things, yet I tried to keep my emotions hid" it just sounds weird but other that it's good


  • Jeb
    January 7, 2008

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    Deep

    I am truly sorry you had to expeirence such horrific things at such a young age. Thank you for entering my contest and good luck!


  • halapalu
    January 7, 2008

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    i think this poem had flow, but at some points like "He found out i thought i was gonna have his kid
    so he called me mean things,yet my emotions i hid" it was a little awkward to read. sorry about your awful experiences. best of luck in my contest.

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